I feel like I cannot feel again
   The depth is gone The edge is gone
           I'm emotionless and stoic
   I'm static and white noise
              I donot feel anymore
     I'm dangerously numb,
All I do feel is anger burning holes in my skull
         So full of words begging to be let out.
   I'm so lost in my nest of decisions
       I regret my flight and my freedom
    I regret everything I did n didn't do
             These feelings are for me
    And shall consume me
           Till there are only bones and ashes
        But I don't want to regret anymore

Bleak eyes and sore throats,
Dark room and elevated pulse,
Several broken promises
Floating away on Aladdin's carpet.
Leaving the premises of my heart.
Burning bridges all around me
Consuming me and setting the world on fire.
They burn the city up like fireflies
Disappointments and expectations gone awry
Exhaustion and anger is what remains
Empty broken bottles line my kitchen floor
One stuck on the door won't let it close.
Sleeping is burning through me
Anxiety won't let me sleep
I cannot recover the harsh words
Said in anger and distraught
Adrenalin has its peaks and ditches
Mine is still roaming around scattered
Words I always wanted to say
are imprinted on their minds
And recorded in their ears
So are theirs on mine
I cannot forget them.
Mother always said going forward and regretting is always a waste and believe me I'm in no haste
Although in my darkest time I do regret
I can't take back my words
And I won't let them take back theirs

I wanna hear you knock at my door
I'll let you in I promise
Just say the magic words and step through
Trust me and let yourself go
Tell me what you feel
Tell me your ambitions
Tell me anything and everything
Pour your heart out to me
And I will listen to every word of it
And I will never judge I promise
Hold on to me I have nothing else to offer.
I have nowhere else to be
Trust me and let go.

I've watched you grow so strong
             To see you break isn't real at all
I've watched you build bridges with all you had
                     With love, kindness and sincerity
             To watch you sacrifice all
In love and devotion is a sight to behold
                     You are beautiful and lovely to bits
         I pray the best for you always and forever
I hope others learn from you
                  Your love and patience is remarkable
             Your hope and believe contagious
I pray you get everything you ever wanted
                                Aameen.

When sorrows sorround you,
When things depress you,
When you are unable to express your emotions,
When you are forced to supress your passion,
When you keep failing everytime,
When you can't fight the hardships of life,
When you start hating everything,
When you end up thinking suicidal things,
Those moments when you feel helpless,
And you begin to act way too careless,
Then comes the time to fight,
Hold your breath tight,
Bring that smile on your lips,
Not for me,not for you,but for those who care about you.