You know,

  Sometimes I wonder what life would be like if I hadn't met you.
You have changed my life and I can't thank you more.

  You make me so happy and comfortable, I feel like singing along
to my favorite songs just because I am so happy being with you.
La La La La Da Da Da Duummm La La La :) there i go, singing along.

  I can't even imagine sleeping without you beside me to hold onto
in the middle of the night.
When I wake in the morning, I look forward to seeing your face.
  I enjoy your music, and your passion for what you love.
I admire your honesty and trust.
  I especially admire that you are stronger than I expect.
Through our fits and snips, each time I turn around,
there you are, with a smile on your face.
                                                           ­  and that is why, I Love You.

  I say, but never truly say,
                                                        that....­
I love to hear every thing you have to say.
I love to learn every thing you teach.
I love to listen when you speak.
I just, love you.

&& I'm so happy I married you.

Our son is turning 7 and they have been the best 7 years of my life.
I am so lucky to have the both of you in my life and I wouldnt want it any other way.
Thank you for being so strong and connected. You are always there when he needs you.

Age 1, learned how to walk
Age 2, learned how to talk
Age 3, learned how to create
Age 4, learned how to make a mistake
Age 5, learned who is a best friend
Age 6, learned how to let go
Age 7, learns how to follows his heart..

Co-parenting is never easy when the parents involved are not on the same page of understanding as the other.
Luckily on our sons end he has the best of both worlds. We have compassion, understanding, love, and forgiveness.
We can be a team without being together and that is all I could ever ask for our son to see.

This is my moment to thank you for being an amazing father to him.
I am entirely grateful he has you in his life to love him, to care for him, to be there with him.  
I want you to teach him how to follow his dreams, how to open his heart and to show him how to love unconditionally.  
To show him that even though things may not go as planned, there is always a positive in a negative situation.  
You have made an impact on our lives and we love you so much.
You mean a lot to our hearts.

Thank you for being compassionate.
Thank you for being understanding.
Thank you for being strong.
Thank you for being everything to him.

Cheers to the next 11 years

My feelings are unsure, these I haven't felt before
My heart tears into two
People drawn apart
That too familiar feeling of being alone in the dark
As I think to myself, what have I done
With the quickness of the hand,
I take what I still love
And I run
I run away from what this means
Together forever?
No.

I used to love me
I used to love us.
Married for all the wrong reasons
Who do we blame?
No happy future here
Just selfishness and shame
We used to be amazing
We used to be in love.
Now I have torn feelings, after each and every hug.

The tear no one sees
The ache no one feels.
Living in a lie,
Is this even real?
I've mixed so many emotions
Just trying to find love.
I lost myself somewhere
Somewhere I never wanted to go

It is you, that i dream of.
It is you i remember.

Your smile, Your lips, Your soft sweet kiss.

This day to always remember,
would i ever forget?

never.

It is you, who i long for.
It is you, who i miss.

Kiss me in the summer bliss
touch my skin; show me

Lips, Lush, Love and Lust.

Love me not for who i am,
but for what i have become.

Change me? Never, You have changed my life.
Want me? of course, Get me; never.

I Still love you, as you love me.
Under certain ways, we can never be..

Lyrically I'm a poet
Like a romantic,
I'm hopeless,
Getting lost in the days,
I get lost in your gaze,
Inspired by true passion,
A kiss,
To see what happens...
With every action,
There is reaction,
No denying,
The attraction...
Endearing words of affection,
Fall just short of perfection,
Once night falls,
Sleep begins to call,
Sweet dreams are wished,
I see them...
Your sweet lips,
Then your eyes,
As if forever searching,
Finally find each other,
Bursting with emotion,
Now go back,
Read it again,
So my story of  you,
Will never end.

"You are beautiful "
"I love your smile"
"I love you"

Who couldn't love you?, they ask. I would do everything for you, they say.

I'll tell you whats wrong with me, I'm a woman and i'm complicated with my every decision, thought, and argument. Do you realize how patient and honest my partner has to be?

To find the man who can handle all of MY flaws was a very hard task and sometimes even though i have found him, my heart and brain fight every day over if i have made the right move..if i have made the right decision.

I literally have to remind myself on the daily how blessed i truly am. I am learning how to appreciate my life. How to appreciate my love. How to appreciate myself..
Hardest part is waking up each day and telling myself, "I love you. I love your smile. You are so beautiful who couldn't love you?"

I fight for love. My love.

Walk on by
As though he doesn't phase
Just say, "Hi"
Don't stare in a gaze
Keep on going
Just walk on by

As days pass
I don't ask
I assume he is of the past.
Again i drop on by
Just to say, "Hi"

There.
There he is,
Comfortable and warm
Lying asleep as i walk through the door

Can you feel my crush?
End to begining
Begining to end
Be adventurous with a new friend
Break the bread
Bend to the limit
No consequences
Enjoy every minute

Be alert
Be aware
I'm not a perfect person
But I care

Lets make a memory
People often don't share
Give me a kiss
Anywhere I dare

Remember when we used to smile.
When the days were endless.
When the nights were full of laughter.

Remember when we stayed up all night joking.
When we would talk about nothing.
When we held hands for hours.

Remember when we first said 'I Love You'
When we first kissed.
When our kiss turned to love.

I remember when our days were... all about us.
Now we don't have endless nights.
Now we don't have nights of laughter.

I remember when our lives were easy.
Now we don't talk about nothing.
Now we barely hold hands.

I remember... Yes, I do remember our days as one.

Look in my eyes
Know that i care
Feel all my wants
With no despair

Closer and closer i become
I need your warmth
Feeling so strong
I want us to work

Take it slow
We agreed together
I'm so into you i just can't wait
I want to be your forever

Piece by piece
Day after day
Learning to be alone
Is just all pain

Setting my feelings aside
I've come to understand
In order to get you
I need your hand

So i wait for you
i will wait until you are sure
Together forever
With Hearts so pure

With this restless mind of mine i lye in the bed wide awake. Dreaming of my future, my past, and thinking of my present.
To me i feel as if my legs are locked in bed. I cant get up even if i tried.
I wake and wake and lye like i am unable to physically move.
How do i get up from this slump i have fallen in?
How can i get any rest with all of these thoughts running through my mind

So open yet so closed.

I just want to sleep. Im so awake.

I almost want to cry..
i feel myself building up that urge to just yell, 'why!??!'
i can see now how i wish i still had you :(
seeing you kiss her really hurts me.
i know we have moved on, but your love still holds my heart :(
why dont we talk anymore? why aren't you there?
did i say something wrong to you? or do you just not care?
i really wish i could express myself to you,
but i feel that if i do, i will just push you away, or make you sad.
i wonder if i just want to make you want me so i feel wanted.
i should feel wanted, but not in that way..
i dont know, maybe i just miss you,
or maybe.. just maybe..
i still long for your love..

:/

i want you to want me.
i need you to need me.
i'd love you to love me.
i'm begging you to beg me.

Your surprise visit caught me off guard.
It's been a long time since I have seen you in person. My heart jumped when I looked into your eyes. How beautiful they are, it amazes me. Looking at your lips, as you speak your every word to me. How could I not smile? You have me rushing with emotion, I can't tell you how much I love you.
You touch my hand, I feel your softness, I feel your power, your scent, I can still smell. Oh how I must touch you. One kiss, on the cheek, set fire to my soul. I am so in love with you.
I feel you kiss my neck, how I can't bare not to want you Beside me
                              Inside me
I am full of excitement each time I hear your voice, each time I feel your touch, your hugs, the touch of hands, brushing your hair with the tips of my fingers.
I want you to stay, but I know it will never be

Sing to me
Let me feel your love
Endure me with your words
Hold me with a note

Sound over sight

Sound
Sound over sight

Loving me,
Right.

Randomly loving you is so hard to do.
Missing your beautiful smile, the way I feel when you make me laugh. Oh our memories! So full of laughter and love.
I remember when my feelings grew and I finally told you, that I loved you.
Awkward? Kind of, but I couldn't help but tell you.
When I speak about you, it's hard to explain how I fell for that voice. Texting just isn't enough sometimes, but when we talk on the phone for 5 hours!, now that, is something I charish.
How can I not love who you are?
Head up high, you know where you want to go, you know what you want in life. You have a beautiful body, a fantastic smile, and the smooth voice that won me over.
I think of you daily, just to have you on my mind because I miss you being with me.

Throw me in a time machine, let's see if we could've worked out

From the first day I met you, my heart was set on you.
We have been friends for 5 years now and I can't imagine my life without you.
Due to unfortunate circumstances we can not ever be together.
You know our love would be tragic. As much as I have always wanted that, I know we live different lives and it just wouldn't work. I dont mind being there for you when you need me. That is what I am here for. For you my love. To help you, to listen to you, to be there for you.

I just wanted to take this moment to wish you a Happy Birthday. To remind you of how amazing and strong you are. You are perfect in every way and I am entirely grateful to have met you.
I sincerely hope you have an amazing day because you deserve every smile, every laugh, and every special memory.

You are my everything. My dream come true. Only problem for me is that I can not have you :(
You are always in my thoughts, dont ever forget that. When you feel you are alone, know that I am here for you to love you, to care for you and to charish you.
I couldnt ask for a better friend than you my love. I love you so wholeheartedly and its such an amazing feeling.

Thank you for being you. I love you.

Lead me down the lonesome road
Fight me through the darkness
Scream to the top of your lungs
Hide me from the heartless

Drown me in the shadows
Peel off my fearful face
Fake my sappy love song
I want to die in Grace

I look back

See what i see?
Look there,
Smell what I smell
Smell this
Feel what I feel
Feel here

Close. Too close? Close enough
See me, smell me, feel me

Now,
I look forward

Too close? Closer now, more than ever

Ask me if I care
I dare you.

Go ahead and tell me how you feel
I'm not listening.

"You disgust me. I hate you. Go away. Get out. Leave me alone. *******."

Endless I say
go ahead, spread your fears

Ask me if I care, I dare you.

Seven years later, and it still aches.
When I say your name I smile. When I tell a story about you I get the giggles.

You were the sweetest, most precious human in my life. You made my holidays memorable. Never in my life had I ever been treated so well.

You picked me up, we walked together, we talked, laughed, and held hands. For once I was actually Happy.

then it happened..
I broke down. I was broken.

I was the heart breaker, that never meant to destroy love. With each waking moment I charished "I Miss You"

To have that, meant something to me. To be missed. To be loved. There was so much going on that I did not know how to handle it.

I tried to fix it. I tried to renew our love.
I tried.

When you asked me "why do you keep coming out of nowhere?" I admit that I didn't know how to understand that. I took it as why do I keep coming around where I am not wanted.
But I was wanted.
I was always wanted.

Now I sit here. Dark as night. Feelings aside, and I cry over your name.
Maybe it is true that everything happens for a reason, I just wish I knew mine that started this all.

I'm sorry

Activly listen with your ears
Make eye contact

To have fear, what does it mean?
Fearless, no fear.
How does it make you feel?
Fearful, to have fear.
What should you do?
Scared, to be scared of someone
              to be scared of something
which is worse?
I fear, fear, the most...

Feelings..
Thoughts
Fears
I'm scared but I don't have a reason to be

A knot in my throat
A choke in my words
The batting of my eyes trying to keep the fear from arising
The flushed cheeks on my face
I have felt so much the past 8 years
How can I tell what I feel now, is how I'll feel in the next year's to come.

Is what I'm feeling, rushed?
Am I adding onto my biggest fear?
Am I trying to push away because I know my past may be held against me?

I am good, but am I good enough

I miss you.
I miss seeing your smile. I miss smelling your scent. I miss feeling your touch. I miss hearing how much you cared. I miss you telling me about what we have.
I just,
Miss you.
All the time. Like crazy. I just want you to be near me.
Always

It's our love I don't understand. Why can't we just be happy? Where our happiness seems to be with each other. Would we be able to handle one another? Would we **** heads? Probably, but I am willing to deal with it.
Any woman would **** to wake up next to you, to see that amazing smile of yours.
To love you for you. To be able to hold you and kiss you. To rub your head and calm you when times are rough. To hug you, and squeeze you. To play with you and hear that laugh. To watch you when you get dressed and feel like the luckiest gal to have a man like you.
I want to be that lucky woman.
I want to quit dreaming of my love I would get to share with you. I want to make this love known.
I feel like I can't express how I truly feel 100%
I really want you to feel how special you are to me.
Because, I love you, and I always will.