Life is not easy, my love
Life is too short
But we yet listened to them
instead of holding our hands

We didn't trust ourselves
our trembling, doubting heart.
I think I got scared
and made us move apart

A stranger you were
but I fell in love
so, I tried to sense myself
avoiding have me hurt

Now dearly I do  pay
as many poems as I wrote
my heart is still in pain

All these feelings, my love...
Will you fight for me
or should I throw them away?

I feel your reluctance once again
but you've shown me boldness back then
What is now? I  don't understand

A clouded veil all over you
I feel it always there..
Are you in pain, my love?
Did I  hurt you someway?
Or just your pessimism prevails?

Many things remained unsaid
It's time the play came to an end
Don't you think too, my love?
that truth is the only way
to push the pain away

I understand that words may come out wrong sometimes
but your eyes...
they never lie, my love

Big, sparkling eyes
charming like you
but a long, sad story
I see behind the blue

Just remember
I  care about you

Now, heal my wounds
Give my hopes a stay
or make clear to me
I  won't be yours anyway

the one I left at the door way
the one I cannot unloved
the one who see see the scars
your knows my name
your told soul will tame soul
love lost

"You are beautiful "
"I love your smile"
"I love you"

Who couldn't love you?, they ask. I would do everything for you, they say.

I'll tell you whats wrong with me, I'm a woman and i'm complicated with my every decision, thought, and argument. Do you realize how patient and honest my partner has to be?

To find the man who can handle all of MY flaws was a very hard task and sometimes even though i have found him, my heart and brain fight every day over if i have made the right move..if i have made the right decision.

I literally have to remind myself on the daily how blessed i truly am. I am learning how to appreciate my life. How to appreciate my love. How to appreciate myself..
Hardest part is waking up each day and telling myself, "I love you. I love your smile. You are so beautiful who couldn't love you?"

I fight for love. My love.

Looking out into the blistering night
further my travel to reach a mystic height
why can't i get there yet?
the distance increased when i misplaced my steps
why can't i just get there?
across the glaring beam of the central star
my journey to meet my love feels so far
i try to avoid the malignant zone
oh... But i'm soon to find my home.

I need to touch her shoulder
these many nights have been getting colder
oh lord all i wanted was to just hold her
through the months of walking
my wishes stem from contantly hoping
i still avoid the menacing zone
oh... But i'm soon to find my way home.

It's true that if i do not give up the fighting
i will prevail to witness my dream sighting -
of a woman that i glorify as my queen
a soul that has cared through my days of being green
will i now make it?
who knows, but this trip feels like i've walked to Rome
i see her, standing within Zion now i've finally found my home!