Nobody knows the pain that i feel
Nobody knows how life for me is unreal
Nobody knows the anxiety that i have to deal

Every night
Every day
I always feel the darkness that won't ever fade
I'm hearing voices that I can't contain

The struggle that I am facing
is so life consuming
I can't remember the time
When I'm smiling genuinely...

Everything started like a fairytale
Giving us hope that forever we'll stay
Giving us a chance to believe that our dreams will come true
Giving me a chance to believe that I will be with you

Dreaming the day that you'll be mine and I'll be yours
Is something unattainable for me of course,
You're a princess in a faraway castle
While I'm just a mere peasant just watching the cattle

I can't find the words to describe your beauty
I'm speechless and always feel this kind of uncertainty
Uncertainty that you and I are not meant to be
But I'm still believing that you are my destiny

Having some conversations with you is priceless
It makes my nights filled with so much happiness
Even with those small acts of kindness
It makes think that my love for you is endless

Now I can't believe that this is really happening
You want to talk me and tell me something
It gave me the chills when you said that
"I love you so much, Do you love me back?"

I'm lost for words and I don't even know what to say
I just hugged you and tell that you're the most beautiful person in this world
It still lingers, your scent that day
and I'm going to love you like no one ever could

Everything turns bad
That it makes every breathe so hard
But whenever I see your face
I feel the sun's warm embrace

Every negative
Turns into positive
When I'm with you
I always feel secure

Inconsistencies doesn't exist
It makes life more easier to cherish
You help me enjoy life
You always make me strive

You are the reason, I can see things in a cooler view
I wish that I could spend every moment with you
Because you are like the Sun
and I'm Earth that needs you more than anyone.

Maybe love is something that doesn't exist
Maybe love is something that we must have to cherish
Maybe love is something that could make us smile
Maybe love is something that could make us cry

I cherish the times that we had,
Even though it didn't last
You made me feel
That I am somewhat special

Through those words, you captivate my heart
Through those words, you made me feel that I'm complete
Through those words, you hurt me in an instant
Through those words, you made me think that love is a foolish thing

My world turned black
When you started hurting me with those words
How dumb am I to think
That you wouldn't going to hurt me

And now I'm in this ongoing battle
Between my heart and my brain
How much more could I handle this struggle
How much more could I resist the pain

It's now unbearable and I'm starting to hate myself
Why was I to dumb to didn't realize
That I was being manipulated and fooled
Maybe it's because I was too naive

Or maybe because those words that you've said
Made me feel safer and comfortable
Now I'm in this constant regret
Now I am emotionally unstable

Maybe it's for the best to move on
Maybe it's for the best if we shouldn't talk for long
Maybe it's my destiny for my feelings to die
Maybe it's for the best to say goodbye

Every time I close my eyes
I see visions of your smile
I sense the pain that you always hide
I feel hopeless every time

I wish that I could make everything better
I wish that I could make your life brighter
I wish that I can make you stronger
Seeing you miserable, makes me weaker

I hope miracles do come true
So that I can see that beautiful smile that you always do
I wish problem will go away from you
For you to start a life anew

Ever since that day
you changed my life
Ever since you walked that room
you made me complete

No words can express how I feel
how much you changed my life

Forever I will remember
Forever I will cherish
Forever I will love you

It's been a while old friend
How much time has it been since the last
adventure that we had
Do you think we can still create new bonds
or just fade with the memories of the past

I know its never too late to look back
but I wished I should've just took that step
We should be in on it together
Not just only me clutching on to dear faith forever

Why do I feel so alone?
Why do I keep pushing away people?
I feel like I'm in an ocean drowning on my own
I feel like everything's going to crumble

Probably its my own fault
for building an iron wall encasing my soul
Is it dumb of me to think
That someone will destroy it in a blink

I realized it too late
I realized it too slow
now I feel alone because of my mistake
I feel like there's nowhere left for me to go

We all take different paths
but sometimes we encounter changes
This changes affects our detailed plans
Inch by inch we are getting out of range

This changes sometimes make us feel regrets
This changes sometimes makes us upset
This changes bring something that we can't easily forget
This changes moves us forward and takes up everything to the past

In the end we are all left with a memory
A memory that we wish to relive
A memory that brings us relief
A memory that yearns for a much more simpler life
A memory that lingers deep inside
A memory that deep inside we know will never come back

Why do we feel?
Why are we able to feel?
These questions pop in my mind
Is there something going on inside?

These past few years
I was not able to feel
These past few weeks
I was not able to tell

For the longest time, I am not capable
To tell the feelings that I have inside
It shows now that I am not stable
To express feelings that I never denied

How can I become normal?
How can I tell someone?
How do I reach the feelings that are gone?
How do I turn it back to normal?