Barely talked since she told you no;
My best friend rejecting your love
And not wanting to be yours

New crush within 2 days
After being 2 years obsessed over my best friend
And trying for 3 months to charm her, requesting my aid

So you didn't talk to me for 3-4 weeks until you messaged me,
You were miserable and wanted me to break it off to her
And we're still friends so I do

Today we were talking and you seem more comfortable with me
And you seem all worried about how I am and how things are
But then you said something odd and abrupt;

"Come to Ireland with me."

At first, my mind told me that's absurd moving to a different country
But now that I think,
I may just take you up on that offer

We both could use a fresh start;
Strange people that don't know the rumors spread about us here
No stained reputation and issues to follow us

It sounds heavenly,
A blissful paradise that seems so beautiful

I was headed home when I stumbled upon thee;
A spidder

Your hill-like crooked legs speeding down the road towards me,
I tried to run

But far too fast were thee and crawled upon me
The spidder whispered to me;

Now at last,
We're connected by stomach and arm

Revving engine there you go,
Twisting the throttle of your Harley Davidson

Sunglasses down, a small smirk upon your face
You think you're better than everyone
You stupid mosquito

Most times I imagine myself committing suicide
And actually dead,
I find myself running away from my home
Only time end my life somewhere alone in the woods

A few times I see myself going behind my best friend's house
Others the woods near my home;
Sometimes going somewhere where I know nobody would think of looking
But rarely in my home in the bathroom

I know exactly how things would go if I did it at my trailer home;
In the early morning hours, I'd cut and overdose on my pills I've saved up,
My mother would try to come in the bathroom at 6:45am when she wakes my brother up for school
The door will be locked, she'll call out my name thinking I missed the bus
Though she'll receive no response and can't get in
So my mother will wake up her boyfriend and ask him to unlock it
Only for them to find me on the ground unconscious

But if I left my home,
No one would know where to start looking
And I'd be successful -

The End

your boyfriend is a dog, so what does that make you?