I can be white, black, red, green.
No color judgement, ever since.
I hear things I dont want to hear. I see things I dont want to see.
When people are mad,
They take it out on me.
Time just pass me by
And sometimes people asks why
Why am I thin, thick, wide, red, rough, or smooth, or they'll ask me if I know all the truths.
If only I could talk.
You will know the answers
And all the crimes, worries, and wonders
Will be discovered.

- P.D

I JUST REALIZED THAT CRYING OVER SOMEONE YOU ALREADY LOST
WONT MAKE THEM COME BACK.
SO WHY ON EARTH DO I KEEP LOCKING MYSELF IN AN EMPTY ROOM
WHILE REMINISCING THE THINGS WE USED TO DO
WHY DO I KEEP CRYING AND EATING ALL MY FEELINGS OUT
WHEN I CAN GO OUT THERE
AND SHOW ALL THESE ******* THAT I DO KNOW BETTER
BUT I JUST CHOSE TO WAIT
AND NOW THAT IM DONE WAITING
I'LL LET Y'ALL SEE
WHAT Y'ALL LOST.

- PD

DO I EVER CROSS YOUR MIND
BECAUSE OH  BOY, YOU'RE ALWAYS ON MINE.
DO YOU EVER THINK ABOUT THE PAST?
FUNNY HOW IT ENDED SO FAST.
DO YOU EVER THINK ABOUT US?
WHAT COULD HAVE HAPPENED
IF THINGS DIDN'T END UP THIS WAY
BECAUSE I DO
I ALWAYS DO.
I WONDER WHAT COULD HAVE HAPPENED
IF YOU STAYED

*WE COULD'VE BEEN SOMETHING WONDERFUL

I remember the day we used to talk til midnight
You'll bet I'll fall asleep and leave you behind
But you were wrong, because we talked
until 6am
We exchanged stories
And even though we ran out of
Stories to tell
We still make our conversation go
And thats what I like about you.
You told me stories about a girl you used to like.
I cant help, but feel jealous.
I know you noticed it from my response
And you said
"Are you jealous?" I laughed and said I was not. You asked again. Then I gave up. "I shouldnt be, tho." Is what I told you.
"Yup, you shouldnt be, because i totally feel nothing for her." Is what you assured me.

But what happened now?
Why did you leave me for her?

i dont know how to start this so i'll just start by saying hello
even when i mean goodbye
i wanna get out of here because im tired
but im tired probably means im scared
but i'll just **** it up and get this over with
ask me if im okay and i'll say im wonderful
but maybe i mean i cant do it anymore
you see, everybody sees things with their own perspective
like i'll say trees are okay but i mean they're beautiful
by beautiful maybe i mean you
when i say you, i mean i adore you
and if i adore you i mean, ill always think of you

i wouldnt say i dont care
its just that i have a lot of pride that i cant swallow
when i say i cant swallow i mean
ive learned how to swallow starlight and
i hope you know that the ache it brings is like a cinnamon heartburn

i hate people with pride issues
they make my tongue burn and swell
but i mean my kiss taste like a shotgun to the lips
it'll make you feel brave.
it'll make you feel brave, but i mean it'll make me weak.

sometimes we all feel like we're imprisoned
somewhere we dont want to be
but let me tell you this, you're like a bird
you're free, you got the whole world
because baby, there's no such thing as cage.

let me end this with a thank you,
but maybe my thank you means hello.

what i want is to drown you in my pain
while you're screaming my name

all i want is for you to show the fear you hide
while im there crushing your pride.

all i want is to feed you to a crocodile
and take away those smile

what i want is to forget about you
cause im tired of feeling blue

i want to repair the broken promises
and turn it into pure bliss

you asked what do i want this time
if i say "you"
would you consider that as a crime?

why?
why do people fall for the wrong guy?
i mean can't we just fall in love with a guy whos always gonna be there for us?
the guy who wont leave us.
why do we need to fall for the wrong one?
like, we could just like someone and that someone will like us back,
and thats it.
Everybody happy.
like you won't leave each other.
why do we have to call them the wrong ones if we can fall for them and make them the right one, right?
and just keep on falling in love with them
over and over again.
thats better right? well atleast for me.

you know why some people are mean?

because thats a way for them to not be heart broken.

to act like they dont have one.

you're afraid of the dark?
no, you're just worried cause you can't see anything.

you're afraid of heights?
no you just don't wanna fall.

you're afraid to show him/her that you love him/her?
no, you just hate rejection.

you're afraid of love?
no, you just hate the fact that sooner or later they'll leave.

you're afraid to let go?
no, you just hate the fact that he is gone.

you're afraid to try again?
no, you're afraid to make the same mistake twice.

you're afraid?
no you are not.
you're doubting, but *you're not afraid.

You told me you love me.
You told me im beautiful
You told me im almost perfect.
You told me im the most beautiful girl you've ever met
You told me im hot
You told me im important
You told me you cared
You told me you will always be there.
I just smiled.
You told me you love my smile
You said you love everything about me.
But then you wondered.

'Why doesnt she believe me.'

You dont see the things that I see in the mirror, boy.
You dont see the pimples.
You dont see the dark circles
You dont see my big stomach
You dont see the scars in my thighs
You dont know what I think about myself.

Now, you know the reason.

you wont lose him i promise.

[ because you cant lose someone you never had ]

you cant keep him. im sorry.

[ because you cant keep someone who's not yours ]

you wont get him

[ because you cant get someone who runs away. ]