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Nikita Jun 2015
Falling apart
Emotionally
Physically
Mentally

I work so hard to please everyone
To help
To give
To smile
To be positive for other people

Yet i get nothing in return
A few extra hugs and aqquaintances maybe
The occasional thanks
Dont get me wrong
I dont expect anything in return

But i do expect that people would at least
Try
Because im sick of always putting in the most effort
Sick of being the one to pick up the pieces
Sick of the one walking in the shadows of others

I just want to be cared for
Not just cared about.
Nikita Jun 2015
Theres a tightness in my chest
I cant breathe
I cant think

Thank god noones looking
Even though I kinda wish they would
But they are busy
Busy with their school work

I dont know why
Why I had a panic attack in class
There was no trigger
No stress
Just
No breath

It happens often
But Im scared that this anxiety
Is not just an illness anymore
It cant be treated anymore
Its as though its a part of me

A part of me that hugs me a little too tightly
Or strangles me a little too softly
Medication doesnt seem to be working and im feeling as down as ever.
Nikita Jun 2015
Long hair
Tan skin
Pouting lips
Bright eyes
Perfect skin
Right face shape
Nice curves
Big *****
Tons of makeup
Popular brands
Loads of cash
A designer waldrobe
Killer smile
Cruel humor
Cold shoulder


What you need to be a generic girl with alot of facebook likes and a popular ******.
Nikita Jun 2015
"Why get thinner when you can get more dinner"
Nikita Jun 2015
Tell me
What do you love to do?
What makes you happy?
Whats your favourite food?
Do you like to draw or paint?

Because life isnt just about work, relationships and media
Life is about creating yourself
And creating a life to remember
To look back on and *smile
Nikita Jun 2015
My room is a mess because Ive been raised to be comfortable with things that dont seem right.
Nikita Jun 2015
Equality is giving everyone the same thing
Justice is giving everyone what they deserve

You wouldnt give everyone ballet outfits because one person is a ballerina so why give a ****** the same sentence as a drug dealer.
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