If you would only
let me
Hold your hand
through the dark
again
If you would only
let me
Hold you close
and hide you from
the evil
If you would only
let me
Listen to your
every woes
If you would only
let me
Stay really close
to you



I would.

It’s true what they say,
we always hurt the ones we love
and love the ones who hurt us.
We can quote Bukowski as much as we want,
but we need to realize the severity of his words.
“Find what you love and let it **** you.”
Love is a death sentence.
It is a sweet one, but in love’s very nature it is a death sentence nonetheless.
You will search the world for someone whose favorite book is The Picture of Dorian Gray
and who worships the same 1953 Hepburn film
and inhales dark coffee in the way that you do.
But you will end up settling for someone who has skimmed the back cover biography of Wilde
and who remembers when and where Audrey was born
and drinks java from a little coffee shop that you think is pretentious.
Yet there will be a time when you will find someone that you can’t live without
and you will be shell-shocked when you see that they can breathe air through their lungs
and eat the spicy food that you don’t like
and sleep with the window cracked just a little bit
all without you.
You will hate yourself more than anyone for letting yourself need someone as much as you need that one person,
who doesn’t even know that when you say you only take two sugars in your coffee,
you actually mean four, sometimes five.
You will ignore their pleas and roll your eyes at their petty compromises.
You will make them miserable because you love them more than they love you.
And they will stick around because they feel guilty for that very reason.
You will salt their wounds and ice their veins.
They will leave you on the side of the road and try their best to hate you.
You will both recognize that it is a valiant yet fruitless effort.
The line between hate and love is so slight that a feeling can change like a compass.
Love is hate and hate is love.
So you will grow to tolerate their lack of literary prowess
and enlighten them on what you actually mean when you say two sugars.
Most times everything will feel off and never quite the way you had expected,
and you’ll always wonder if you have ever really been happy,
and if this is actually how love feels.
When this happens, you must remind yourself that love is a complicated emotion.
It is in the tide of the sea
and the phases of the moon
and sometimes found in a frightening trek down Memory Lane.
You can find it in the face of every person that you have ever met
and sometimes it does not grace those pretty faces for very long at all.
The most truthful and sad part of it all is that it will eventually **** you.
But it is a death sentence at it’s finest.

Frightened he waits alone.
In prison of roof and white walls.
Why do they hide him there,
can they not see he's scared?
Mama says, "He's just not right in the head."
Sister says, "Leave me be for the rest of the day."
How can they hide such a treasure in the darkness?
Brilliant of mind and wrapped in ugly flesh.

"Have some patience, look inside me." I said.
They won't hear our little whispers on the bed.
Sweaty palms, it's good to feel you against me.
Don't look at us now. Look at all that we could be.
Have some faith, love.
I'll be good enough, I swear.
I'm more than anger.
More than all the grief I wear.

I stumble over stones half blind,
I cannot see God's grand design;
But one day I'll have a higher view
Of all His mosiac's radiant hue**
Unknown

I
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a
v
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f
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l
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n
g
s
that
form
thou
ghts,
that
form
words,
that          form
sente            ­     nces,
that                       form
rope,                         which
ties                               itself
into a                            noose.
Your                         ­     words
are also                    a rope,
that saves me from
drowning.