Hello, I am dying
Dying in soul
I can't stand to live
Never lose your purpose, child, and forgive!

Hello, I am dying
Dying in mind
I have gone crazy
Don't listen to the world, child, wait and see!

Hello, I am dying
Dying in heart
I am too weak now
Remember you're fragile, child, also bow!

Hello, I am dying
Dying at last
Weak, crazy, hopless
Don't forget your hopes... dreams... child. Keep your bliss!

Hello, I am dying
Softly I go
Goodbye, dear sweet child
Dream, love, run, create, cry, child, live your life
And die.

There’s this feeling again.
Like petals and teardrops,
I am falling.
I let someone in, and they destroy me-
leaving me, crushing every part of me.
I am scared.
I am restless.
I am starting to build walls around my heart,
starting to get lost in my thoughts,
and in the deepest corners of my soul.

foundational fluctuation
as flatulence is introduced
that’s right
**** jokes
pppfffrrrttttt
destroying families
undermining relationships
damaging friendships
ending love
breaking the mold
extinguishing the fire
eliminating the excitement
drowning fun
and smelling bad –
pretentious vegetarian
wind walker
kale excretions
cabbage attack
cauliflower bandit
spreading propaganda
and funk
while talking trash
about cigarette smokers –
I could go on for days
making egg comments
referring to the arrival of Eddie’s
big brown shark –

the smell of cigars,
the mess around us,
the arguments we start,
the feelings that makes us fall apart,
the heartbreaks we suffer,
the words we mutter,
the broken pieces we repair,
the kisses we share,
the hugs that mend us,
the insults that turn to dust,
the tears we sob,
the banks we rob,
create one
chaotic perfection,
out of us.

Suffer is to want it but don't do it.

Suffer is to love them when there foolish.

Suffer is to encourage when they beat you down for entertainment.

Let go of all the hurt they put you threw it.

There screaming but you speak with love and calm them to.

Understand cause you don't have to be understood.

Speak the truth when they don't wanna hear it.

Suffer gives you a heart of content because to be honest this is the person that everybody loves too see them with to pull threw it..

..Thank you

I know who you are,
I know what you hide,
I know what you do,
But I can't understand why.
I know the truth,
About the drugs,
I know the names,
of the men you ******.
I know you're back
in rehab too,
And this is why,
I'm done with you.
I know you lie,
You've lied to me.
A thousand times now,
It's plain to see.
You take care of kids,
That aren't even yours.
Yet, you're not a mother,
Behind closed doors.
You're "The ****"
That sleeps around.
"The one" they say
"who's been around town."
The one who cheats,
On the ones she "loves",
The one who's sent many babies,
To our god above.
I know the truth
About that too
Kidney stones?
Yea, caused by who?
These are only
Just a few
Of the things I wish
I could say to you.

fragile china teacups
lined up like soldiers
on the table
beneath lace and under sable
lies a yearning to break and
smear blood throughout the room and
look back in awful ecstasy

-c.j.