It's funny how one moment can change you
Flip your whole world upside down
That's how I felt when I met you
In your eyes a new world to be found.

It's funny that you're so honest with me
A trait that's been lost over time
So easy to talk to and easy to know
In your words a new song to be sung.

It's funny that I feel this way about you
To barely know you yet feel so at ease
For the first time in a while things have changed
In you I see a piece of me.

I love the ocean but I hate the beach.
I feel out of place.
I feel it used to be our place.
A place we could run free.
A place where we could just be.
Listening to the waves crash down one on another just like our bodies crashing together.
I may never go back to the beach.
But every time I hear the waves it’s like I’m there again.

I’m that girl that no one likes.
The one who tries so hard to be liked.
I’m the one who goes to lunch alone.
The one with no one to call.
I’m the girl who always gets one-upped.
I can never just bask in my own success.
I’m the girl who feels like a burden who can’t see through all the *******.
I’m the girl who’s never had a boyfriend.
I’m the girl that no one wants to date.
I’m the girl that is seen but isn’t.
I’m just that girl.

I take one look at you and a million things start running through my mind.
I text you and anxiously await a response.
I wonder what it will be like the next time we hang out, and if you feel anything for me.
Could this be something?
Because all I really want is to be wanted.
I want you to be as excited to see me as you are when you see your food coming in a restaurant.
Or when something really good happens to you, I want you to think, how should I tell her, what should I say?
It's not that I like you.
It's that I'm hoping for a different ending to the story thats just beginning.

Trust.
Something I've been scared of with men thanks to you,
But now I have a new best friend who helps me through.
Love.
Something I thought we had,
Maybe platonic,
But it still ended so sad.
Thoughts.
They'll never stop,
I assumed I'd just move on,
But it's so hard to believe you are really gone.
Life.
Life goes on with every breath,
Every move,
With or without you.
Time.
They say time heals all wounds,
And a wound is what you are,
Healing beneath my skin,
While I search the world I live in.
Search*.
Searching it what I'm doing,
Finding a new me,
A me I *trust and love,
A me where I can think and live freely.
A me where in time I know I'll find it.

More times than I can count you've haunted my dreams.
You've left me behooved, not sure what to believe.
Those dreams were precious,
What I wish would exist.
I know I can do better,
But I just want your lips.
I want to have your taste linger on my tongue,
Your smell to stay within my sheets.
All these things I'll never know,
Until I get you with me.
So here we are again,
Night after night with you in my sights.
Hoping that this one will be even better than the last.
And until that day I find you and me together,
I have my midnight memories to remember.