.
*•••••••
•here lies
the  rema-
ins• that once
beat with  superb lustre•
caring not for worldly gains•on-
ly undying  hopes  of pairing  with
another• but fate had tipped  the scales, not in his favour
•when  it  sent an  oncoming  car to share  the  same lane•
driver was behind the wheel but alcohol had  taken over•
causing the car to swerve recklessly
in the rain• the last  few moments
was punctuated with a deaf-
ening sound•his
day began
not know-
ing  death
was  writ-
ten   from
the  start•
so here li-
es *he, whose
heart had thus
been crowned •
his love is immortalised with this tombstone as his heart•
••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••

I'm getting awfully tired
of being alone.

It's getting colder
and
I'm lonely
and I'm really
really
tired.

I'm tired of
being anxious
about everything

overthinking

being left out.

I guess I'm just too young
to know myself
and I'm tired
of that
too.

I'm also tired
of getting told
that although I'm special
I'm not quite
special
enough...

but I guess that's my fault.

I'm just so tired.

Sorry.

I'll put this plainly: I like a girl
Quite a lot, actually
But all my thoughts are all over the place
They all clamour for attention, their beliefs attacking me

"Go for it," says my heart
"What have you to lose?"
"What ****** drugs are you on?" says a part of me
"Would you date yourself if you were in her shoes?"

Nightmare just shrugs his shoulders
"Why would you ask me?"
After all, I am virtually emotionless
I did ****** your family."

Permafrost dictates otherwise
"Follow your heart, because it is always true
Don't let anyone else
Tell you what you can and can't do."

Verdugo believes in chance
"Take the risk, if you dare
Take the risk if you believe
That she knows just how much you truly care."

"But do not get too cocky
You have your limitations"
I believe Verdugo has the best advice
For my current situation.

At least, the most positive advice
I kinda believe the unnamed part of me
But I also have faith in my heart and Permafrost
So my emotional division dictates an unclear destiny

Let's do this
We should do that
look I just want to read
I wanna do that
Do this with me
Selfish I feel indeed
What are you doing
something...
Nothing I see,
Then come and do this with me
Am I bad for wanting peace
I can't have it I see
Your bad at what you do
Why do you try
I wanna do this instead
You sell me short
It hurts so much
Should I tell you......
How could you
Your negative thoughts
They depress me
I'm not allowed to feel
Your bad at every thing
....
God don't even try
I'm prettier
......
Fitter
Don't you dare complain to me
.........
Of course, I'm sorry for bringing it up
You should be
*....lets