he wants to sleep
forever
and she cannot stay awake
for two people

a flicker
of recognition

a glance
into a sea of faces

a pair of eyes
that were once familiar

but the feeling is
different

the emotion is
heavy

i look away

i could drive
to your apartment
but its

empty

like my head
unlike my heart
like my hands
desperately

grasping

for something

that i am

unsure of

in continuation

its been a while
since i was
hospitalized

three years ago
i nervously waited
for my verdict
at 2 AM

so when he called me
tonight
with a voice as tired
as someone who had finally
given up

i knew exactly
what was happening

and i relived
my death wishes
through his soft,
defeated words

"i love you
more
than they
loved you"

but do you
love her better?

she
bent
to your
will
until
she snapped

now
do not
blame her
for
making you bleed
from the wounds
caused by her
splintering
shards