sssshhhh, did you hear?
it's an amazing day today!

so rise, freshen up!
open your window, light a cigarette,
brew yourself a cup of coffee (or tea, if you prefer that)
freshen up!

because whatever's in line for you today,
the world is out there, welcoming you with open arms!

so raise your glass,
let's toast to a new day ahead!

and when the night comes,
the stars and the moon are going to look down at you smiling,
congratulating you for doing great today!

it broke me when you told me about the misery that you're in
it broke me that all you ask is some sort of comfort,
and yet i can't give it to you
it broke me that i can't go there and offer my shoulders,
whispering "it's gonna be okay"

eventhough you and i both know it's not gonna be

one does not push, as one does not pull.
soul intertwined, at its rightful place.
one walks, transcending into the light way up.

one is patient, gentle, and nurturing.
as one prizes one's gift from the Man Himself,
one guards and gives back tenfold.

one's presence bears an abundance of comfort.
as one's presence lights up the dark,
one's presence readies the other for the unknown.

may one be basked in the warmth one deserves,
and may it protect one,
as the other would.

don't you think it's funny that,
it's you who look at yourself in the mirror,
staring at yourself,
seeing yourself,
every single day,
for as long as you live.

yet often times it's you who fail to see your own worth.

I had to let you go,
you, who had reminded me how to love
you, who had made me feel things for the first time in a long time
you, whose presence had made me see colours again.

I had to let you go,
you, for whom I would wake up early in the morning
you, for whom I would put a mask on
you, for whom I would run an extra mile in somebody else's perfect body

But I had to let you go,
because despite everything, I would still be at fault
because despite everything, I would always  have to keep trying
because despite everything, I would never be enough

So I had to let you go,
because how could I ever be enough?
when you went for the skies, I went for the oceans
when you went for the calm, I went for the storms
when you went for the sunshine, I went for the shadow

So I had to let you go,
while I still remember how to breathe
while I still smell the flowers
while I still have myself

So I let you go,
someone, to whom I made a promise not to leave
someone, to whom I vowed to never intentionally hurt
someone, with whom I thought I would spend the rest of my days

but then you grabbed my hands,
looked at me with disbelief,
with tears flooding your eyes, you whispered,

"how could you?"

you made me promise not to leave you, but you did.

and maybe it makes me the dumbest person in the world but i still intend to keep my promise.

i hope one day you will come back.

i think closure is achieved when,
you used to get hurt because of them,
and now you're wishing them the best

and you mean it.

have a good life.

this writing is for you,
those who have always seen the best in me.

this writing is for you,
those who think i am worth something.

this writing is for you,
those who have unknowingly saved my life.

this writing is for you,
so you know that i will keep on finding my purpose in life.

this writing is for you,
so you know that you mean a lot to me,

this writing is for you,
so you know that i will spend the rest of my life repaying your kindness.

this writing is for you,
from me, who is a nobody, but will be a somebody one day.

because of you.

... and may the abundance do not starve you, dearest.
safe travels.

maybe if i make myself useful,
you will feel the love i've had for you;
one that i've been keeping solely in my head.