I pray
To heaven
To hell
Erase my soul
So another
May take
My place

Step 1: Get out of bed
Step 2: Look in the mirror
Step 3: Practice your smile
Step 4: Eyedrops to hide the red eyes
Step 5: Conceal the dark circles
Step 6: Breathe
The curtains are almost up
Step 7: Lock down the pain
Step 8: Ignore the weight on your chest
Step 9: Silence the screams inside of your mind
Step 10: Choke down the sobs
Step 11: Ignore the stinging in your eyes
Step 12: Swallow past the tightness in your throat
You’ve put on this show a million times
Step 13: Don’t let them see
Times up. Curtains up. Camera rolling

When you get too quiet
I worry
my friend

Did I say something
to offend?

If I did
I surely didn't mean to

But I'm left here
wondering

wishing I could ask you

No
One
Cares
That
I
Am
Slowly
Dying.

Nothing.
A vast expanse of emptiness.
There is nothing.
Only me and these winding thoughts.
Down,
  Down,
     Down,
Thoughts swirling down into the abyss of my mind.
Always remembering what has been said.
All the hopelessness I want to forget.
Anything I onced hoped to happen, but never did.
Down,
  Down,
     Down,
Hello, dear thoughts,
I welcome you to my mind again,
I have become accustomed to these dark thoughts.
I will survive these thoughts.
Down,
  Down,
     Down,
Here we go again.
Here in this blank abyss.

I want to reboot my life,
           to clear the files of
regret,
          sorrow,
                    wrong decisions.

My mainframe of thought
            still has echoes
of deleted files.
Nothing is really rebooted.

I'll keep deleting those files
        till the time there just
                               shadows,
            as echoes can be heard
      but obscurity eventually fades.