Infinite skies
Could not hold the lies
Which spill from your tongue
Like Honeywise
Delectable

I am not wise
I believe your lies
I am intertwined
In your demise
Detectable

Blink away the tears
Focus on the mirror
Look into my eyes
Rummage through the tossed away lies
To find
That in the mess there was a kind
Of letter closed away
From me, not meant to stay
Smooth it out and read amongst the lines
Deep breaths will keep me fine
Why?
Is it me?
You desert?

Dust settles inside my veins,
dirt lingers inside my heart
Broken bones lead to shame
sharp pieces rip me apart

Falling from the open
Sky
Sinking, sinking
Takes away my breath
As if I had any left
Ships sailing, stay afloat
On top of my tears
An ocean filled
Below the surface
Lay diamonds
Burried in the sand
And all my dreams
That couldn't swim
Are spit back up on land
The winds bellow a
Gruff howl
Sinking, sinking
Enveloped by the waters
Caress
Soft
       Gentle
             Careful
Beautiful sunshine
      Smiling above
Hello
                         Goodbye
They swam off into the sea

I was sunshine
At the top of mountains
Out classed diamonds
I was the stars in your night sky
I was the only one in your eyes
But I shot you down
Killed you with my lies
I was dressed as beauty
Evil in disguise
A clone of what you thought was perfect
Every angle you thought you knew
Now a stranger
It was you and me,
And eternity
Now it's just you
Without me
Your stronger without me
You can out do the sea
Your like an unexplored galaxy
Just remember the good times
And dont forget me

Cold
So numb
Almost dead
Breathe in my last
Running from my past
Spun out I would have crashed
So torn and broken I lied
This whole life, I was pretending
I cry to see it now ending
Troubled I run away from my heart
To find what had really pressed start
Glue that held my fake smile
Love that lasted awhile
Heart put on trial
Pain went viral
Love spiral
Smile
Gone

Hope in my eyes, , I'm lost in disguise , who will ever find me,are they even searching ? I'm hurting every day,  because my scars are much to deep, and my hill of emotion is to steep, I'm falling at high speed, I'm cursing myself for every bad deed

Reflections of me everywhere , 
Perfection is nowhere, but I'm not hiding anymore, I want to be found, I hate being alone , I want to hear a sound, I'm calling in the night, can anyone hear me? Are you there do they see me? 

How many days on my own? To many left at home, I made a new life, one with love, one that I could rely on, but as soon as I grew happy, it broke and shattered, it was my life nothing else mattered 

Reflections of me everywhere , 
Perfection is nowhere, but I'm not hiding anymore, I want to be found, I hate being alone , I want to hear a sound, I'm calling in the night, can anyone hear me? Are you there do they see me?

He was a majesty in a world unjust
A place full of death and mistrust
He breathed fire, and his heart was of magic
Gifted to a mortal, who died a death so tragic.

Silent lies the child upon the cobblestone
His beating heart no longer his own
But darkness, betrayal and evil awaited
For the boy to grow and become acquainted.

A man of honor rode up upon his black stead
Sword in one hand the other filled by a bottle of mead
Beside him rode a half-wit poet
Who was a knight himself but didn't know it.

They watched as the kingdom grew corrupt
Lead by a king who should have never grew up
For the heart that beat beneath his breast
Did not belong to his heaving chest.

And with courage from a poor man who had lost his sight
They gathered their forces with a boast of might
And charged at the castle with a horrific roar
To find that courage there, existed no more.

That night they rode away for they were beat
And many discouraged hung their heads in defeat
But just along the brim of the moon
Came a hovering shadow not a minute to soon.

The scaled majesty with the wings of the night
A beast hidden from mankinds sight
Inside his chest beat half a heart
For the other beat miles apart.

In the chest of a coward that had lived in vain
A man that had suffered many in pain
The dragon held up his wings in the cold nights air
And roared "slay me know before he gets here."

But that noble knight felt a guilt like no other
For that dragon he must slay was like a brother
Although he loathed the beast once when his head was not right
He did not loath the creature that dreadful night.

But with the seconds counting down the beast yelled it again
And this time he swung the sword into the chest of his friend
With a terrible screech it fell to the ground
And was parted by the tears of everyone around.

That dragon now belongs to the stars that watch over the dark
And if you look closely you'll see the dragons spark
It was a bravery that saved a village that was broken apart
Because there is no greater strength than a brave dragons heart.

I am aware that I am scared
But I don't know where I am
I'm just wandering there
In the dark of the forest
So large and open
So.... Quite
But something tugs at me
Telling me that I should go
But I can't will myself to turn back ...
Not yet
What is it I'm looking for?
I don't know
I can only feel my beating heart
Hear the snapping of twigs
And debris under my bare
And dirtied feet
I can feel
That I'm being watched....
Maybe even ... Studied?
I'm not sure
Only that I am growing
Terribly anxious
Like something will go wrong
But even as I think the words
I feel the claws break
Into my flesh
I let out a scream
The white hot pain
Searing through my back
Leaves me nauseous  
And so vulnerable
All I can bare to do
Is bring my quaking legs to my chest
Rest my head on the forest floor
And lay in the shredded aftermath
Of shock

The wind pushes against the glass
the rain pounds inside your head
you wait for the storm to pass
but it gets worse instead

The sun has gone away
the clouds fill the sky
the warmth won't stay
this life has gone awry

You wait for nature to take its course
and take you from this misery
but you're sunk down
to drown
beneath the current

Resuscitated before death can claim you,
each breath is without air
lungs filled by salty waters
filling and tearing your lungs bare

Panic fills your mind
and you thrash to get out
but you are held under
unable to die and unable to live

In circles we go
around and around
when it stops you'll never know
at the bottom of the ocean you'll never be found

The door was locked
I knew the key was in the old clock
Twist the key
And push the door open
There was the black beauty
Each footsteps like a note
Lift my fingers to white and black keys
Push away the dust
I sit before her
And let my fingers lead me
Each note takes away the pain
Drains it from my veins
I fall in love with the melody
Filling the room
Filling my soul
Taking my tears
Making me whole
Uncovering me
Letting me show
But I'm not embarrassed
I revel in it
Breath it in
Drink in the light
Let the happiness fill me
To my bones
And come to an end
Breathing heavy
I lean my head against her soft black paint
Then leave
Glancing over my shoulder
Before I shut the door
And lock it

Life began somewhere
It was birthed by the endless universe
It's being an enigma unfathomable by the human mind
But the need inside me,
the burning passion twisting through my bones
suffocating my heart
Swelling in my soul
and intoxicating my blood
begs for the ability to reach out and grasp the understanding

I need to know where the beginning is
I just need to know
My human mind thirsting for the knowledge
Curiosity programmed inside me

It is nearly a physical pain
That I will never know the secrets of the Earth
The hushed whispers faintly brushing my ear drums
And dancing away before I can decipher them

Like a constant dance
we waltz beneath; or inside space?
On this ball of fire locked away by soil
Earth Bound

The need to know life beyond Earthly inhabitants
It's like it has consumed me
I no longer fear Death
I have come to terms with my old friend

In the end I will catch a glimpse of what waits
after my mortality has outlived the shell it sleeps in
Maybe I will be granted wings to fly
in spaces galaxies, endless as they are
Until I am to be reborn

Maybe Earth Bound
Maybe Space Bound

I believe I fell in love with the sparkle in those eyes
How they render me speechless with the portrait of blue skies
Those bottomless pits that I fell and drowned in
As they seem to caress the softness of my skin

Like a lazy river they slowly drink me in
Every sip, a new flutter of emotion will begin
It's a pulling much deeper than physical with you
It's something swimming in the pool of those lazy blues

It's demanding in it's need to be fulfilled
It's a practiced sin with effortless skill
How you captured me with only one look
Has me dangling, struggling to breathe, on your hook

I had walked in the light once
But again I've been devoured by the dark
Which way left or right?
I can't see to decide
It wouldn't matter anyways
They won't give me a choice
Because I lay down ,
And let them take away my voice
Trampled over stomped and smashed
Pushed around hated and bashed
Angrily I brush away
Frustrated tears fresh today
Angers stewing and dwelling
My heart is thumping and swelling
Ah! Scream at the heavens
Breath deep and count to seven
I feel as if the sky is falling
In my head voices calling
Just give me some rest
Im trying! Trying my best
And the rest I leave in the end

Sometimes I pretend I'm someone else
So I don't have to be me
Until I open my eyes
And face my reflection

Why do I try
When all I do is fail
It's a bitter thing
which taste so stale

Unlike these tears
Which fall in a salty haste
I can't seem to keep up here
As everything I do is at a unacceptable pace

Why am I giving a thought
when each one crash lands
I'm everything perfect is not
And I'm being crushed beneath expectations hands

Watch me wither and decay
As I linger and chip away
I'm fading from this place

My hearts fallen out of my chest
and I've tried my very best
to sew it back in

My soul is wearing thin
and I wait for it to take over my skin
As I fall apart

This sad song keeps playing in my head
As my conscious realizes I am dead
Buried deep beneath my sins

Take this empty shell of me
Twist it into to dust, you'll see
There's nothing left to give

I'm falling away

Left and right I was surronded,
I couldn't breath,
The air that managed to fill my longs,
Was opaque with dust and clouded,
I felt like I was falling,
And there was no wings to catch the wind,
And pull me up to soar,
I thought this fatal fall was something made up,
A myth to scare the kids,
But right now though I was planted to the ground,
I was falling,
With no control

Prayer sometimes isn't enough
Ground and battered
The days grow rough
They rip our wings
from our backs
Forbidden to sing
Finding no sun, the days lack
Death snuck up behind the child
Decaying and rotting while still alive
Hungers fingers taunt and tease
Their home was plagued by disease
Skeletons roamed the grounds
Crying children all around
Drink from the hands of TheMother
But it poisons their small bodies
Big eyes stained by famine
Stare into mine
Oh sweet child
So carefully pick her up
I knew she was dying
And I fought back crying
I held her in my arms
This life was only harm
We lived in hell
Dying in the arms of Mother Nature
Will we survive?
Or will we die

I was falling in love with you,
the way so many people foolishly do.
I felt something inside again,
and I left myself unguarded and open.
I left the shell I called my home
and then your broke me and I was alone

I was empty, just stared at the walls,
It was then I watched them crumble and fall.
I wasn't angry no, not at all
I didn't feel anything as I stumbled through the halls.

It was a pain that I can't explain,
it was something worse than pain.
Something that digs in deep,
and takes your heart for keeps.

I closed the door.
Slid to the floor,
and wished for death once more.

It's a never ending cycle of pain,
if only I had the restrain,
not to go back again
but in the end

*I always do.

Why must you trouble my already aching heart, 
Why when I'm in the midst of  my happiness 
You must trample over it with your stampede of troublesome words 
Why must you control me with your
Heartbreaking speeches, 
Of how you have changed, 
Of how you can be better, 
But I've heard this many times before  
I will not fall for your pitiful attempts to pull me back into your deathly grip, 
I'm tired of these circling games, 
I'm done with your nonsense, 
So I bid you farewell

A melody as black as her heart
Playing like a theme song to despair
Dark it dives into your being
Filling your bones with cuts and tears

Singing as color drains and the picture turns to black
Ashes fall down, down, down
A tear of indignation curling it's shapeless body, falling
How does death move so silently making no sound

This fatal lullaby that drags it's poisoned body along
Infecting our minds as well as our souls
Leaving us at mercy to our own sicknesses,
We created upon years of singing with this song

We all stand
Stand beside the fire
That lights the way
To each event do we feed the flame
Every word
Every look
Written in the flicker of the orange light
Dancing on the palm of my destiny

Feilds of Wildflowers
All blooming with her
Looming power

Full and lush with color
Not even rain clouds
Would dull her

They would only feed her flame
Which never seems
To tame

No she flickers like a star
So bright you'll
See afar

And if you follow in her direction
You'll be enveloped
In her protection

Because feilds of Wildflowers
Are lush and
Full of power

Shaky breaths, and
Weightless shoulders
Lift me higher into
A state of mind where
Lyrics bounce in my
Head, urging this craving
For tension to form
Between muscles and skin.
As I feverishly write
Out a thought that
Make sense in no
Mind, but mine.

Fingertips bleeding words
Unto lined paper
Mind an open area
For thoughts, color, shape,
Intertwining to become
Images playing behind
My eyelids.
A smile bleeds to ink
Traveling from the veins
Of my mind