you will meet someone beautiful
who will make you wonder
why you ever thought
you were better off
alone.

Was I wrong to think I meant something to you? Was I that blind? The secret stares. The subtle hand touches. Was it all in my mind? Were we really nothing but friends? Did I mean so little to you? You chose her and not me. Was it because she’s easy? Or was she prettier than me, smarter, funnier? You had nothing to say. No sorry. Nothing. I really did mean nothing to you. And that hurts. It hurts like no pain I have ever felt. Nothing I could have ever imagined. You made me feel small. Insignificant. You made me cry. You made my heart hurt. You made my whole body ache. Thank you for that.

I know how you feel
Unwanted,
Unloved,
Ignored.
Trust me
I feel the same way.
But you're better than self-harming.
You're strong
And brave,
I'll be by your side
Every step of the way.
If you ever need someone to talk to,
I'll always be here.
Please never hurt yourself,
I care about you.

It's funny
Because it's sad
Because it's real
Because of every reason it shouldn't be funny-
It is.

1: My face is disproportional to the rest of me
It looks so uncomfortable sitting on my shoulders
Like it's a holder for the weight of the world

#2: My eyes show too much expression
They cannot lie
Even in moments of severe desperation
When lying that no, I am not about to cry

#3: My words are always awkward
Especially when spoken
They convey the notion of stupidity
When that's not true in reality

#4: My inability to cope with any stressful circumstance
Always retreating
Always receding
Instead of seeking out help

#5: My self hate
My inability to love who I am
The constant wish that I was someone
Who can
Love themselves with their entire heart
And not be dragged into this never ending dark
Of despising yourself
But blaming everyone else