Nothing I do will ever be good enough for you, and I wish I could ignore you like you ignore me but I can't. You have her to fall back on and depend on your happiness but I have no one, I had you and I thought you cared like I did but you didn't and it's killing me. I need to move on but I can't for some reason

I hate the fact
That I really never cared about you
Or even thought of you
As an interesting person
But now,
We've crossed paths again
And I wish with everything in me,
I was the same as before
Because now I think
You are the most amazing human being.

I'm so tired
I'm tired of trying
To fix what we used to have
I'm tired of trying
To forget you
I'm tired of
Trying
Screaming
Crying
Feeling
Will I ever
Be at peace
Again?

I thought I hated you for the way you left.
I thought I hated you because she can now call you hers.
I thought I hated you for leaving me when I had so much love to give to you.
But I don't hate you.
I understand why you left the way you did.
And I understand why you did the things you did.
I understand why you said the words you said.
But I'm still here.
I still have so much love to give you.
I still have so much to offer.
I still have so much love for you.
Come back.

I tell myself to care less
about losing to someone else
and start winning for myself.
The biggest treasure a man can find
is sudden knowledge of his own relief
and elation, happiness, money or relation
or the broken being benching by brothers before baffled
station.

he loved me, and then he didn't

I've lived a life of ignorance,
convinced myself into believing
the biggest lie in the world.
But I wouldn't have it any other way.