after the last time
I don't even want to admit
that I feel something akin to a connection
to a person with the potential
to so easily tear me apart

I am frightened
can't begin to think about
how I would ever be able to tell you
that I walk home every day
just to see your face
to watch the sunlight reflect
from your ocean eyes.

Something I never understand,
(but ponder quite a lot)
is how boys get away with things
that girls simply cannot.
A man can boast about his feats,
and all pronounce him clever,
but a woman is conceited
if she speaks of her endeavor.
And tell me, why is 'bachelor'
a more attractive word
than the female term of 'spinster'
and the concept that's inferred?

It's this gender inequality
that renders women shamed
by the ****** exploitation
for which they're always blamed.
Whilst men are given status for
the women they've undressed,
so after this, please tell me now;
which gender has it best?

there's a girl whom we both know
a demon in disguise
and though she sweetly smiles at me
it never meets her eyes

she looks at you with longing
on her face, as clear as day
pretends to like the things you like
repeats the things you say

she likes to give me daggers
when she thinks you cannot see
but though she thinks she's got it all
she simply isn't me.