It's a funny thing how
feelings can fade away
without a warning.

Just like your love
for me vanished within
the heat of my pride
Evaporating within
the tense atmosphere of
our own screams.

All because my lips
trembled as the words
crawled out of their
hidden crevices
*all too soon, all too soon

I just wanted to feel something
I rushed at the dawn,
I pulled at the fabrics of reality,
I kissed boys who didn't love me
I cried about the poems left unread
The faded words, the frayed edges
I crumbled under the weight of
your expectations
and in the end I was only left
with memories, while you're
making new ones with her.

I can't seem to center
my thoughts anymore
I'm lost between whether
I'm alive or dead,
I'm not sure which one
I would prefer.

I thought I could heal you
with the ocean of my heart
The vastness of my feelings
that stretch for miles.

Instead I drowned you
within my waves of affection
the storms that made me
overwhelming and cruel
and for that *I'm sorry

Tell me if you liked
the pain beckoning you
from my tornado eyes

I cut my heart out
not realizing I didn't have
to ****** my hands to
win the approval of a man

I heard you liked
your girls broken
Maybe that's why
I dug pieces of my
soul out for you
Placing them eagerly
at your feet like
a dog with a ball

I kept coming back
for more and you
kept supplying me
with the drug
of your touch

If only I'd known
you'd put a dagger
to my throat just
to watch me scream

If only we loved wisely,
we had so much to learn
but like eager youths
we raced ahead too quickly
opening the pages of our
love story, skipping the
prologue to the best parts

I've given into temptation
allowed you to curl your fingers
around my throat, tormenting
me with serpent eyes, born from
lust, demons and all things hellish
I inhale poisonous smoke from
your scent, slender frames that entice
the soul into destructions doorway

The wind will howl
at our agonizing fall,
The tides will lash at
their confinements;
and suddenly, inevitably
*we will be torn apart

your voice lulls me
into deep slumber
my head filling
with wild dreams

the fearful musings
of a girl falling
over the crumbling
pieces of her heart

drowning in the blue
of your eyes
the luscious pink
of your lips that
I ache to kiss

the horizon is slipping away,
together we float in endless skies,
our boats swimming in waves of heat,
with only tides to drag us back to reality
the rain hides our fears of tomorrow,
washing away the sins of the day
your smile killing any words on my lips
as we dance towards the sun

I've felt sadness
I've felt it in my heart
My brain
My chest
My robot limbs
Coursing through my veins;
My low killing contaminant.

I've felt it slither through me
At the most unsuspecting times,
As I lay in bed at night
Thinking of you.

My own personal viper,
Rich red, blood red,
Deadly and vicious.
Sent especially for me,
From you, with condolences.

How thoughtful.
The beast is implacable.
He stalks me day and night.
But not so restlessly
As the thoughts of you.

I suspect you planned it.
Nothing is so obvious
You are in the very air I inhale
In each platonic gesture
Forced kisses and apathetic eyes
Eyes blinking through a blurry haze.

Nothing.
Nothingness.

There's an empty feeling inside my heart,
Like someone came and stole it away
And maybe you did.