is it always going to be like this?
am i always going to feel so invisible? so unnoticeable?
it always comes back to you, doesn't it?
i wish it didn't, but it does.
your eyes, your smile, your laugh;
they're not meant for me, and they never were.
they're meant for her.
i spend so much time
trying to talk myself out of these feelings,
but they just won't go away.
though when i really sit down and think about it,
about you and i together,
it frightens me, and i feel silly for imagining such things in the first place.
we wouldn't work,
i know we wouldn't.
but i still get this feeling sometimes...
this feeling that we would be great together,
better than you and her--but i know that's foolish.
and it's a thought i shouldn't even entertain.
and so i ask: is it always going to be like this?