I can't ever imagine giving my heart up again. once I gave you mine you were so careless with it, you were my quarterback but fumbled every time

I won't ever love the same.

When I’m upset.
I shut myself down
I have no motivation or anything.
I tell myself that nobody cares,
even though I know some do.
I think about all the negative things
I could possibly think of.
I give myself all the pain,
thinking I deserve it.
I’m not sure why I do that,
but that’s just how I am.

It's hard for me to think of how fast I fell in love with you
I fell deep into a unrequited love with you

what would you do
if you woke up one day
to find that I
didnt

We drink to forget the thoughts and emotions we experience while we’re sober.

people are just storms with skin

Apparently ***** isn’t the solution to everything because after the fifth shot, the only word I managed to slur was your name.

oh have you been there for me
when i needed a hug
or laugh
or your unconditional love
i am so
greatful for you
thank you

Six months ago I was jumping through hoops to please you.
Six months ago I wanted to make sure you were happy before myself.
Six months ago I wanted to make sure it was me causing your happiness.
But it's not six months ago. It is now.

The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too.

I'll always be sad, and I'll always remember this because at 1am is when the true feelings come.

I don't hate you,
I hate the fact
I can't have you anymore
and I hate
that I still remember
how good you smelled
and how perfectly
our hands fit together
I hate the fact
that I can't have
the only thing that made me happy.

People will do anything to distract their heart.
They will do anything to distract it from missing someone.

you used my body
as I was a tool
you took advantage of my love
treated me as I was an option
I knew things weren't right from the moment I asked you to kiss me and you said no
popped into my head was
your name
your smell
and your momental love

depression isnt something that just leaves
i've had to find out a way to be alright with knowing
it'll always be there.
it feels like i am wrapped in a dark cloud
and i still remember
i still remember
those nights that id sit in my shower
crying, harming myself
i was oblivious of what i was doing to myself

The way you use to hold me
The way you'd talk to me
How you would call me at 3 am
When we would talk all day
Our kisses
Our hugs
I miss it all

And as i sit in the stands and think of your word, you strengthen me and make me a better me.

I love you.
I loved you.

sad

just when i started to not need you
you called
i had a flashback to when you told me you loved me
i now miss you more then ever
but it hurts to see you with her
i have to remember that its not worth it
no matter how much i love you
i have to leave
i have to forget

Completely over you, but still wishing someone could treat me the way that you did.

I feel so stupid to give so much
to someone who deserves
so little from me.

I can't forget your voice, it's like a broken record in the back of my mind.

It hurt, but I still stayed.

I remember the way
the way you'd touch me
or the way you spoke to me
on the phone
day and night
lord do the tears stop
I think to myself
does this pain ever leave my bones
but no
I cannot think of a time I ever thought
I ever thought you'd leave
thinking my love could ever hold you down
i need to laugh at myself
now I no longer have my self love
nor your love
why did they never teach us self love in class
when everything was so much easier
I wish I never asked to grow up into this

I use to sit and play with the scars I created myself and ask why am I so unhappy

I can’t think of a future with you not in it ..

why is it that it was so easy for you to fall in and out of love with me? am I just so easy to forget about ?
yet I am still the most in love with you and I will always love you