Today I missed you,
My mind wandered
And led me to memories,
Of you, of kisses
Of vows forgotten
And broken promises

I thought of your whereabouts,
If your heart is being taken care of
If your smile is still the brightest
I thought of your voice, echoing,
Through my veins and bones

Today I missed you,
I promise I won't call, neither text,
There is a reason you are now my ex,
A reason with a name and last name
Any other attempt, will keep me lame
So I'll just think,
And miss what you where

It wakes me in the morning
The song you dedicated
Now some would say this is obsession
But I beg to disagree
My mind knows well that you are his
But my heart keeps you near
And I'm sorry for the inconvinience
I swear I've tried to unlove you
And I've tried to ignore you and forget you
But my heart keeps on betting on you
We both know you'll never read
All the poems I lay here,
So grant me this reception
It's all I got from your deception.

I wanted to say I needed you,
That my minds drags you like an old toy.
And that you won't spare me a thought,
Not even if your life depended on it.
That I hate you so much,
For breaking me like that.
And pretending like I never existed.
That it angers me.
How much I believed those brown eyes.
And fall for all now I know were lies.
That it breaks me even more,
To think about us,
And remember you everyday.
That you are a ghost that haunts me,
Everywhere I go and everyhow I feel.
That the image of you both together,
Is the center of every nightmare I have.
That it fills me with rage,
How I still fall for you,
And your sick games of power.
That I hate just how much I think of you,
But what I truly hate,
Is my inability to hate you.
I wanted you to know
Cause the silence is defeaning,
And this feeling overwhelming.

Why does my mind keeps wandering,
To the curves of your eyes,
And the pitch of your voice?
Why does my heart keep aching,
To an old photograph,
And a corner at a park?
Why does my lips keep recalling,
To a first kiss in a bench,
And a farewell that still lasts?
Why does my mind keeps trying,
To forget your face and your pace,
And still think of you each day?

I've loved.
I've loved a dead man,
I've loved a warrior,
I've fallen for a doctor,
I've loved a musician.
But it is clear as glass,
That sorrow has
Been my true lover
All along.

So forgive me if I leave,
Close my eyes
And go to bed with
My other half.
And never wake up again.