I wanted to say I needed you,
That my minds drags you like an old toy.
And that you won't spare me a thought,
Not even if your life depended on it.
That I hate you so much,
For breaking me like that.
And pretending like I never existed.
That it angers me.
How much I believed those brown eyes.
And fall for all now I know were lies.
That it breaks me even more,
To think about us,
And remember you everyday.
That you are a ghost that haunts me,
Everywhere I go and everyhow I feel.
That the image of you both together,
Is the center of every nightmare I have.
That it fills me with rage,
How I still fall for you,
And your sick games of power.
That I hate just how much I think of you,
But what I truly hate,
Is my inability to hate you.
I wanted you to know
Cause the silence is defeaning,
And this feeling overwhelming.