i am speechless

i am speechless at the thought of you
your care
               your words
                                 your smile
                                                         your potential.
bridges have fallen
                            crashed down
                                                  burned
a home ransacked
                             pillaged
                                          put in ruins

my heart melted from blind love

                                    and

your heart remained privately unyielding
                         toxically and stealthily.

i am speechless

next time, back up instead of shove
you never know how close someone might be
to the edge of their personal cliffs

If you asked me
Why I fell in love with you
I would say
Your smile
The way you snort when you laugh
Your bear hugs
The forehead kisses you gave me every night
Your snores

But if I asked you
Why you fell in love with me
You would sit there silently
Because you can't remember