for days, you were dead
resurrected only to **** me instead
i never felt a fraction of despair when with you
so i guess that's what i grieve —
how you made me an entirely different entity
with that, i'm clinging on to any fragment of a memory
i'll carry what we had in my heart for both you and me

you tore through my soul like a tornado in a city
destroying anything with the slightest sight of pretty
the few things i once liked about myself are now in a vortex
you promised me you cared for me, that it was never about ***
but one doesn't just stop loving you overnight
now you're just another thing that didn't go right

i wish you were all to blame
but i too played your game
i'll sit here and watch you love someone better
and maybe one day,
i'll have the courage to send this letter.

A drop in the bucket
Just another ounce of pain
Sometimes it's a drizzle
Sometimes it's heavy rain

I try to block these days
Whenever they come about
But you can't fight the storm
Just stay and wait it out

So I shut myself off
And stay in my bed
Until the monsters stop saying
You're better off dead

Another day wasted
Stuck in my head
Hopefully tomorrow is better
And not full of dread

The hardest part
Of staying in seclusion
Is watching your loved ones faces
Pained with worry and confusion

But the storm clouds do pass
And when I see the light
I do anything, everything
To make things right

I know the winds keep howling
And the cold just won't cease
But winter can't last forever
And spring means peace

I miss the sun and it's warmth
I miss hope and spring
The flowers give me joy
As the birds softly sing

As the grass grows back
As the trees aren't so bare
I hope to see happiness
And others who care

For anyone else
Who struggles like me
Please hold on to tomorrow
It will be better, you'll see

I'd give all i have
I'd give all i am, all my life and another and then more to be
Where i want to be
Whether it be with her
Whether it be where my mind is sound enough to silence the offbeat of my heart
Whether it be right here
Where i want to be is where i appreciate the moment with all i am
where i want to be is not where i am

I am sad
Filled with pain
Depression inside my brain
Deaths almost one thought away.
I am awake
My seceret quite opaque
I as I live my life I hate
What am I
Dead on the inside
I cry feel no pain
As I walk down this lonely Lane
**** me
I say
As I hide this lonelyface
To put on a mask that could fool
The smartest man in my race

you are a thunderstorm;
when anger crackles beneath
and your veins pop

you are a thunderstorm;
when laughter bubbles out
together with a cheshire-like grin

you are a thunderstorm;
when tears pour out
with choppy breathing

you are a thunderstorm;
when in his arms
and when not

you are a thunderstorm;
cold and electrifying,
but beautiful.

if the sun goes down
the moon goes up,
and when the sun goes up
the moon goes down,
when will they ever meet?