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Heleli Feb 2017
Becca out of nowhere
Lying on the kitchen floor
Because she wants to
And no one can see her anymore

Becca in her sleep
Dreaming of bureaucracy
And icebergs faraway screaming
In their immensity

Becca cannot speak
She's not used to it anymore
And if she could she'd only talk
Of time and dinosaurs

Becca at the movies
Has been watching for too long
Now she can't remember
Her own face for theirs are too strong

Lady becky in the night
Speaking out her private visions
I have lived a thousand lives
All in the comfort of my room
Exploring soul in my capsule
Through the sole window seeing stones
Shining in the sky years ago
I am me only when alone
January 2017
Heleli Oct 2020
Bonnie before Clyde, Clyde on his own
Twist and turn and racked with bugs
Fighting sleep and giving up
The constant strain of the unknown

Losing focus on simple things
Notice the stillness in the frenzy
Life in such a small place is a matter of scale
April 2018
Heleli Aug 2017
Painful eyes
Not made for painting
Raise a fever on my face

I have reached
The fatal hour
The fluttering of the pace

I hope I'll be somewhere pretty
To go back to the stars
For company, do not worry
It's more crowded there than where we are

Once I was
A breathing tree
I lived through foreign ages

I will grow
Again on this field
Wild as undying ices
August 12th 2017
Heleli Oct 2020
My arrows reach almost
so high where my mind lives
and fall back down bearing
smithereens
My tiny sirens
heaven-haunted
July 2020
Heleli Oct 2020
Captain we have found a staircase
A spiral deep and sound
I was lying on the ground
Woke from a dreamphase
We have found a staircase

There is mud in my stomach
And on my clothes
And I haven't spoken since the crows
Left a scar on my back

Captain we will not be back home

No harm, no harm upon us
I have come to trust the entrails of the earth
Discovery kills but not fast enough

Tell them we have drowned in the melting snow
Tell them we are frozen in the sea
Say God was there in person
February 2018
Heleli Jan 2016
On a static evening
Couldn't move my hands
Couldn't wait again

The mechanism's been failing
Couldn't look the other way
Couldn't think of something else

It's a glasshouse I'm living in
And the air has filtered in
I'm breathing all of time and space
And feeling all my wounds and theirs

It's probably some word you said
Or a strange movement someone made
The colors of the streets at night
That displaced something in my head

Is there anything good to say
Anything that could make a mends
Gathered the strength and closed my eyes                          
Trying to fly over myself
Heleli Aug 2015
There are years to go before the storm
That will tell if I lost or won
Craving what only dreams can give
We are monsters, we shouldn't live

The angels' sadness live inside
The sickness of a lonely child
These eyes are mirrors that never glow
Moving in the dark down below

A thousand mourning days later
When will stone turn into paper
Blessed be the day the journey ends
Reveal so many wounds to mend

You'll find me when the world begins
With just a smile you will break in
It is a song as old as time
And we were born to find a rhyme

I have a duty to my kind
To always try and learn to fly
But here on the ground I am proud
To pay attention to the clouds
Heleli Jan 2023
Flesh to fire
is how we start
and half of me dancing
punching rythm
on your bruising chest
I want nothing left
but the motion
in the core of the sun
a scar over your heart
and limb to limb
is how we part
september 2021
Heleli Jun 2015
As the cold winds scratch off my lungs
And my skin fades as pale as snow
I breathe this air and then forget
All of these faces I now know

When I need a reason to walk
The frozen sky I remember
And the first days of November
Bring the thought of an icy dawn

I will stand there and carry on
Just for the beauty of Winter
Heleli Nov 2015
My voice has grown cold and muddy
I can't allow you to worry
Send the signal on my command
Ignite the air and then we'll see

And still we march with no motive
Something to hold, someone to grieve
We live off dust from better days
And light that glows under your skin

From things you found you built a dream
Somewhere with a field and a stream
To fix our heads and help us walk
Cure our existence from within

And still we march with no motive
Something to hold, someone to grieve
We live off dust from better days
And light that glows under your skin

Many seasons are blinding grey
Breathe in and find a place to stay
Next to the Earth over the sky
A place we are just passing by
Heleli Oct 2020
Gloria for glory
The age at which she told her story
Flushed with pride and insolence
Standing on the balcony but looking in
A child with no resistance
No ache to share
Her captain, her agony, had left her planting roses behind the farmhouse
So there she stayed in half-shadow, but sun-graced and standing among the branches low with spring, now high and bare, still standing in the meadow
If she wakes she can walk unseen and see everything foreign in the darkness, and he will not be there because this is the hidden world.
Glory arrives unexpected
They know how her head spun when at the harbour the ship sailed and the men smiled, how shine is not lives away but now and for the taking
Know a heart can turn blue but insane blue is the colour of the sky.
November 2017
Heleli Jul 2017
I've been sleepwalking
For my own sake
It's part of a scheme
To make the world end
An insidious scheme
I don't quite understand

I've been talking to strangers
They know their place in time
I just follow hints
And hope for a long night
Fall into my footprints
It'll be quite a sight

Once we reach the summit
Over the valley and beyond
From then on it won't be long
Before we see the whole world split

I've been known to roam around
They won't tell me why
All your efforts unnoticed
Have left me feeling unalive
I'll save you all by accident
An accident I won't survive

Once we reach the end of it
On a great hill looking down
I'll turn our meanings upside down
Until another sun is lit
Until the green dawn over mirror hill
June 23rd 2017
Heleli May 2016
I'm the only voice inside of my head
But that's not what I'm worried about
My own room has rejected me again
The state of the world has left me roaming around

When I got too sick I crawled to the road
Found my old thoughts as I watched the landscape roll
I learned everything from these dark shapes in the heave
I believe you know I was born to leave

So I walked the streets in search of innocence
Yours I found and the children were saved
But I think I swear more than I should
I swear I'll come back to see you soon
When I can, when the weather's right
Cause in the confort of winter I slept when I could
And I could only think of you and the city
And the people that don't make a sound
And those that write things on the walls
I'm telling you because I care, and you were there,
I saw salvation on a merry-go-round

I felt the need to stay a while
I needed to find the places in the movies
A perfect moment when the lighting's right
A fake cardboard place full of possibilities

I went to see the few people I can stand
It took them so long to remember what to say
But my words were melting into theirs
I can't face anyone for more than a day

I'm home everywhere as long as the sun sets down
We grow up crooked like trees in the ache that surrounds
I will be home on the road when the sun sets down
Heleli Oct 2015
Sisters of boredom
That never got away
Were born and died on the same day

Sisters in the winter
Now buried in the sky
Did you find peace in your exile

Love and fantaisies
Like the rest of the family
And soothing cold until we sleep

Extaticism
Water infiltrates the skin
Leaves a taste for adrenaline

Sisters of disgrace
Remain the pride of the nation
Named after some foreign ocean

Sisters of creation
Whisper madness and lullabies
On the edge of the world at night
Heleli Nov 2016
Once there was a song to a siren and the ocean was in it
The notes were water and the waves moved obscure
Those who heard it shivered because of the wind
That weaved around the words and was breathed to the sea

The sound was left for the years to dissolve
And in cities full of air there were strange relations
To the colliding two it was ache and fire
Through the streets it followed and nested in a cove

The looming demise has long since been reached
Sounds remain out of time in a mystical land
In every childhood story with a prince by the sea
Shuts his eyes and enters a dream

He follows as he goes he is saddened and pure
For his love is answered in such a strange voice
The hands that he seeks belong to her off shore
For a touch on his chest bruises his core
12/11/2016
Inspired by Tim Buckley's Song To The Siren : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vMTEtDBHGY4
Heleli Nov 2015
Big eyes
For such wonderful lies
Here lie all hopes and visions
Sit still
And don't break the transmission
My love, beautiful work of fiction

So bright
Images so unreal
Cut open your cruelest dreams
Holy music
Bleeding through my heart and ears
My adoration, bringer of tears

Hold your breath
Never ever look away
It's a promise of captivation
Foreign sorrow and excitation
Nothing needs any explanation
Heleli Nov 2016
I am a bug, I'm just an example
Of what the new millenium still cannot hold
My purpose is of no importance
As long as I can find a home

Nocturnal scenes have been reaching out to me
To stay and keep the day away
But I have trouble staying awake
It's a transition I don't want to see

I am a running wind on the side of the road
Where I have never run before
I cannot see much more from where I stand
Because I don't stand still anymore
23/08/2016
Heleli Aug 2017
I feel my face
White as a corpse
I look more and more like myself

I live alone
Sober and bright
Daylight burns my skin

You roamed under my window waiting
I called out too soon
No one ever taught me the rules

Will you lie with me on the carpet at night
With the windows open in summer
With sleeping soundwaves in winter

I live alone
It shows I think
A lifetime in a room

I live alone
With all of me
Scattered in figures on the walls
A lifetime on the moon
August 24th 2017
Heleli Oct 2020
At home he finds himself thinking I wanna go home
I've just realized I'm too tired to be awake
But still I go on
It's way too easy
He's right, now he tries and succeeds
It was easy, I won't do it again
It's too clean, it's way too sane
He's gaining ground then lying down
This is my thrill
Taking turns and leaving places
I live off the motionwave
The rush and the comedown
I get it
I get the stillness, the strain and the sickness
I say give in
I gave in to myself
And now I'm fine
Now I'm beyond life
I have stopped waiting for love
So it can sneak up on me
And I'll die of fright
As it should be
March 2018
Heleli Jan 2016
It's snowing again in New York City
It can't be snowing without me
But I'm still where I've always been
Counting trains and feeding fantasies

With the night come long lost memories
From ancient times, would you believe
I've walked this ground for centuries
I feel the earth spinning

I owe my daydreams to January trees
And my peaceful days to winter mornings
Behind my eyes I see
Strange lands of frozen poetry

If you could see what I see
You would find it's all worth it
For a minute lying here
I'm all I could ever be

Oh now I crave for the unreal
In a second away from here
In the sound of a voice I hear
Are visions I want to believe in

I owe my daydreams to January trees
And my peaceful days to winter mornings
Behind my eyes I see
Strange lands of frozen poetry
January 2015
Heleli Nov 2015
Tragedies of the mind
I got yours and you got mine
Now that we're standing side by side
Watching the snow bury the ground
Cold water

I'm thinking maybe we should talk
About the winter when it's dark
And the rain on, and on, and on
The soaked earth, washed and gone
Cold water

Cold water, filling up my lungs
Now winter's gone
Summer heat
Has never been enough to help me breathe
It's in the air, everywhere, humidity

Forever lost in nostalgia
Only good memories we've got
A piece of safety underneath
The mold and dirt we live with
Cold water

Cold water, filling up my lungs
Now winter's gone
Summer heat
Has never been enough to help me breathe
It's in the air, everywhere, humidity

And who will care for our sins
When we turn into paper-skins
Damp and blue from the season change
Left alone to die in our beds
Heleli Jan 2023
cut it out like mold
the rot, the stone
burning a hole
the blackened roots
in growing hiss
the lake of tar
its shiny twist
cut it out whole
the flaming coal
make the new fire sweet
Heleli Aug 2015
I want a cure to my headache
And something new to put at stake
I want to spin when I feel sick
See the stars floating out of reach

Get the sensation on my skin
That all is left to begin with
Send my heart over speed limit
Laugh and cry until I can't breathe

Step into someone's universe
Bringing a whole new kind of curse
Write my mind on top of the trees
Get a new bruise from my worries
Heleli Sep 2017
Here in the remains of our town
There isn't much to see
We stole an empty house
And waited for reprieve

In the course of disintegration
The only place to stand still
The room of revelations
With the weight of the ****

It doesn't matter on the last of nights
And tomorrow
Out of your arms and into the plague house

There will be no survivors
Because all will be saved
It isn't much of a lie
I believe everything I say

I say to you maybe later
When we are left to stand
When all of this is over
You would like to take my hand

It all fades on the last of nights
Lie down
Stay until they board up the plague house

O morning the doors open wide
Reveal a movement in the ruin
The eyes suffer in the sunlight
The dust had settled on the skin

So it seems on the first of nights
No one knows
How we made it out of the plague house
August 30th 2017
Heleli Aug 2015
Breathe before the sunrise
Take all your time
The night's been cold and loveless
And your thoughts have been restless
One moment before you leave this town behind

So breathe before the sunrise
Study the sky
You wish you had deciphered
Promise you'll always remember
Keep this picture in a corner of your mind

So breathe before the sunrise
And say goodbye
Wait for the train that leaves at dawn
Wait for the memories to form
On blurry days forever crystallized
Heleli Oct 2020
Raven, raven
was locked in heaven
and lost on me

Rainy days
on his house ablaze
he came back to see

But never linger on here too long
I am not so strong

Gave him charcoal
to feed a bloodlust
I hoped to see

For my body
won't leave the ground
Oh bird leave me be
September 2017
Heleli Dec 2015
Take me to the middle of the ocean
Where the waves come crushing over me
And the whispers of the tranquil sea
Will tell me «Now look up into the sun»

And the hopeful smile of a sunny day
Lays its warm light upon us
I never knew how to break a curse
But I swore to find another way

While the wind shatters the night again
And you lay restless under the trees
Let the nightmares come among the dreams
They are not the ones that cause you pain
Heleli Jan 2016
Upon your trust I built a castle
Blinded their eyes for my own sake
I am mad, I am a genius
That is, on my glorious days

I am a liar by profession
And I will ****** your conviction
I took a guarantee for life that shines with blood and cyanide

From a young age, I was a winner
Born with a secret taste for guns
I was afraid, I was so sick
I was promised to the sun

I knew right when I first saw you
We'd be two in my fiction land
I kept you there, under my spell
Walking slowly towards the end

I am a liar by profession
And I will ****** your conviction
I took a guarantee for life that shines with blood and cyanide

Pardon my fear that dragged me down
I did what no one can forgive
My love just couldn't bear the thought
To lose yours or to outlive
You

We'll all go out in a blast
I knew it from the start
Oh, my old soul is torn apart
Oh, my children, oh my god
No, they couldn't know I failed the test
So I put a weight to their chest
My dream has been alive
I made them all so proud
When the time came on Judgment day
I made them look the other way
Finally then the truth could rise
I finally burned off my disguise
But the fire for me was a bore
So throw me there now and please never unlock this door
Written in July 2015
Heleli Feb 2017
Roaming round the hallways looking surreal
With your vampire face and ice-cold gleam
When your sensitive skin feeds your will to live
The spleen follows you home

Blame it on them for your childish ways
Your taste for gloom and frantic chase
She came to you for your heydays
Told you there is more to come

I wonder if she keeps a little garden
With weeds and a fairytown
She'll ask you to lay her body down
Once alive and once underground

He says «I was so clean when I felt dead
Real life is dirt, I needed stains
Please run with me the day will pass
You'll be my first and I'll be your last»

Come on laughing in waves the children of war
Broke into a room and slept on the floor
Her head on your chest, she felt your heart twitch
We're all the same age, oh but which?

Take your aching head to the countryside
To be reminded that the world is wide
And neverending for you shiny maniac
I'm not scared of dying, I'm afraid I'll come back
January 2017
Heleli Jul 2017
I'll show you my room
Dark as a cave in which you are safe
In which we will bloom

It's a metaphor of me
And there's no one usually
To breathe me in

You will come to me
When you don't need to
When you just want it to be

And the places we're bound to are waiting
For the pieces of ourselves we'll be leaving
Everywhere we go
June 15th 2017
Heleli Mar 2016
I'm confident when I say hello and goodbye
I've never been young, I died once or twice
Still believing it improves overtime
Growing up is taking a while

Start caving in and take all your stuff
It's always too much much and never enough
I'm waiting for them to stop caring about me
That way it'll be easy

You can feel it if you try
The frantic movement of my eyes
Some ***** feeling that lingers
I ripped the skin off my fingers

Tell me how you do that thing
When you talk I hear feeling
While my words remain unfinished
December 2015
Heleli Oct 2020
Song for third class and empty rows
Song for you missing from me
Song for night time in a capsule
For departures and arrivals

For love promised and never found
For corridors I roamed around
For killing time in the meantine
Before you come around

Song for you at my station
Song for glances stolen slow
For narrow doors and swaying motions
Song for sleepers in a row

Song for days in slow motion
Song for home after the trains
For the bug and the visions
The promise of speed again
March 2018
Heleli Sep 2017
On the morning of our first apparition
We did not talk much we just swayed
Until the hour drained away
I screamed inside the empty ballroom
Our figures collapsed on the stairs
And nothing hurt at first
The ground was green and healed the soul
That much I had always known
But no more dirt upon the walls
It meant nothing was real at all
So I'll take you underneath a tree
And we can laugh at our despair
The sober burning light of day
Hurting our heads until the night
Then pressure on the swollen mind
To spit a painful stream
Pale image of a dream
Although it made me smile
September 7th 2017
Heleli Jan 2023
After the collapse
I could have a house
I'd build it with my hands
from what pours out of them and
whatever I could find
Shape the wood with my bare brain
Everything there made
and loved
and the knot unmade
january 2021
Heleli Aug 2015
One day someone began to say
We would all be better off dead
So young and hopeless like a god
A boy swore to defy the odds

Following the pulse of his dread
He raised a genius from the dead
To go on a glorious rant
Silently, inside of his head

As it meant nothing to compare
His feelings to those they all wear
«Please forgive me for the sad thoughts»
He said before he hurt their hearts

You're just a mad recurring dream
And you feed on my self-esteem
You made me see through the world's skin
So you could burn me from within

This one man noticed, staring shy
The void in the depth of an eye
A million days of devotion
And from his rage flowers blossomed
Heleli Oct 2020
As she was young and carefree
at the dawn of men
The lace that draped her body
both godly and profane
For hands to grip, for hand to rip,
someday for his to mend

As he was young and sickened
at the dawn of life
He promised, warm and shaken,
sitting by her side
To stay if she would have him
To touch her if she liked

Under shadows of many kinds
the lonely lovers lay
On grasses green, on asphalt overgrown with weeds
a thin layer of sand
The distant planets in his mind
all gather for the dawn of time
The galaxies in waiting
and their mysterious design

As they were young and ready
for the rumble of the land
Her skin remembered nothing
but the kindness of his hands
March 2019
Heleli Jan 2016
At twenty-four
I'll be everything probably
Letter sent was lost at sea
All is lost or left to win
All that matters is twenty-four

Ruling cities or universe
Perfect hair, neverending thirst
Perfect heart cares for all of us
I have to destroy everything first

Hope is reached at a high point
Compulsive joy that I'll recall
Young minds understand everyone
Remember me as the best of all

At twenty-four
Everything will be alright
Fireworks and fairy lights
Another me alone at night
All that matters is twenty-four
June 2015
Heleli Jul 2015
She held him by the neck and never let go
Turned him inside out with liquid sorrow
She loves, she loves him so much
As much as the others that made her blush

She sings her lovespell all around the mansion
Calling ghostly figures to haunt their passion
She laughed, and held him closer
When he spilled black ink to exorcize her

All around and underneath
My soul is blessed by your kiss
I ran so far from my home
For a fleeting sense of bliss
And everywhere you followed
Carved your name into my bones
My heroes could take us down
You and me both, underground

Well he just needed something to get high
Because the scars on her wrists made him cry
Disease, never get sober
Fear the silence that makes us remember

Every night the mirrors shake, the heart aches
They're smiling bright because it all looks fake
As good as it gets, alright
But when she dies, he'll die by her side

All around and underneath
My soul is blessed by your kiss
I ran so far from my home
For a fleeting sense of bliss
And everywhere you followed
Carved your name into my bones
My heroes could take us down
You and me both, underground

Bittersweet, you are mine
When you die, I'll die by your side
I will take you underground
Heleli Jan 2016
I'm sorry you started noticing
That the sky is just a painting
Please don't stare, no one understands
Just focus on the touch of my hand

Go talk to her about your days
But don't be fooled by her weather
Cause she's got many other friends
And a guy who doesn't care about them

And I know exactly what to do
I'll just wait until it's over
If it takes a lifetime to find her
Push me aside and let me sleep
I come from a house
With a single window to the sky

You're walking around the same places
Always stopping right at the door
Turn around now and step outside
Look at the sun on the ceiling

It's dark and shining with colours
It's as real as anything else
You won't get much from this city
It's haunted by people like me

And I know exactly what to do
I'll just wait until it's over
If it takes a lifetime to find her
Push me aside and let me sleep
I come from a house
With a single window to the sky

If something's wrong you needn't say
Cause I know all about the way
Your head fell in love with the ground
Now you want a place to lie down

A tiny space with just enough room
To contain you and nothing else
To whisper to your scattered self
And push it back into your skull
Heleli May 2016
Why do I have to go when there are things such as poetry
How can we go to places and forget the people we saw
Their tongues speaking in tongues while their brains all forgot
And made an effort to bleed sincerously while it was still time
To be honest we could have given anything we were made of
The point was asked but somehow nothing could be done
Somehow still it all remains vague and unknown
We talk about the words in an endless repeating cycle
And laugh in a crisis and then stop and stare at each other
How I want to speak to you in a way that can be heard
All through your skin and blood and become what can't be talked about
The infinite we chased, that only dead men caught
That gives us what we need and will always ache for
The pain of being remunerated through oblivion or pleasure
Sometimes beginning to give a glimpse of a heaven made in here
Made human at last I understood it so clearly
The confusion that holds me like a mother in tears
As another night wishes to be endless through me
Everytime that I believed has led to a greater destiny
And no one, no one is made human by words only
They, and you, and I grew as we were supposed to be
Made into ourselves by thoughts of things that can never be
I wish to stay eternal, pure, but that's a lie
I gave myself enough authority to try and go out under the sun
Like natural children all humans and trees running in joy
Pure closeness to everything and everyone at anytime
Moments of salvation that can be reached through madness
And love, like water to your face, like crying in front of the intensity,
Like hands reaching out to welcome you into creation
The contact of souls unheard and alone
Warmth forgotten by history unlike inhumanity in all forms
Too common to be true and I only believe in stories
I have no identity that I wish to pursue
I have no more upon entering myself
Because the well of thinking is common and universal
With original speeches from unoriginal ideas
Or the opposite and images consciously exposed to be wept upon
Half a century later drenched in water from tears or spit
Loved until death, which means no death at all
And repeated ****** of a feeling shared
22/05/2016

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