Your words trap me in my own body
Your breath on my neck leaves me aching
Your voice when you wake up is croaky
Your hands on my body are bracing

The skin on your chest is like fire
Your arms round my neck is restraining
Your lips on mine give that desire
That I want when I say I've been waiting..

You long for the sensation of happiness, and try to find it in everything possible.
But never get that real fulfilment you're looking for.
You struggle to find what it is that you need, but you can hope its there.
And just by looking at a new purse in your favourite store, next to some pretty heels; that array of happiness momentarily lies in your presence.
But there are all these things to want in the world.
All these materialistic items that can make you happy for just a few short moments.

But what I personally really want is him.
He gives me that happiness that lasts aeons, and that is what I need

I sit alone, but with the company of my worries floating around me
every minute I am here time slows down even more.
I don't know what I'm looking for..
but I know I need something;
Something that will take this pain away for at least a couple days.

When I'm with him It's like the times I have felt alone never happened
It's like I've only ever been happy my whole life
It's like loneliness ceases to exist
It's like I finally know how it feels to know I am really here.

But of course, when he leaves I sit alone waiting
Waiting for that change inside me
knowing it will never happen..
but still always having some hope in my heart that I will get better

My room is dim,
the bags hanged on my door are swinging,
It's cold and I should be asleep.
But theres more important things on my mind like;
would I be happier if I was dead right now?
will it end soon?
I hope it does.
I'd rather my flesh rotting under ground,
than my heart collapsing to pieces every night.
This isn't healthy, I'm aware of that,
but I also don't care.

I hope when you're in bed, it's night time
And you feel alone..
I'm the first thing that comes to your mind.
I hope you wonder what I'm doing
I hope you wonder if I'm ok
I hope you think about that time we were in your sisters car
I hope you think about the time I fell asleep in your arms
I hope you remember when we climbed on that building and I scraped my leg
I hope you know you were the one
I hope you know im thinking about you right now
I hope you remember when you first said you love me
I hope you remember what you promised

It's too much effort to stay in this room anymore
I want to leave
I want to see the light
I don't want to come back
I want every little piece of my body to burn to dust
I want to be pulled away from the world
I don't want sympathy,
Its pathetic.
I just want to go.

They say hell is beneath heaven,
that's because I'm in hell right now.