Why does my heart keep beating?                                    
**                                          It died long ago...

i don't think i've ever felt this way about someone before,
you always seem to sneak into my thoughts at around four,
you always seem to make my inner core, burst with fire
because of my lovely desire
for you,
and only you
even when i'm the bluest of blues,
you have no clue,
how happy you make me,
with a simple 'how are you?'
darling i can't help myself,
falling for you,
but please tell me one thing,
*am i in love with you, or the feeling?

To be able to fall asleep,
And never wake up

To avoid looking in the mirror,
Or making up lies about why you're acting weird

Vanquish all fears and worries,
All doubts and concerns

To escape the world,
To forget everything

The good times,
Filled with laughter and joy

The sad times,
Filled with tears and sorrow

The angry times,
Filled with rage and hate

The cursed times,
Filled with cutting and scratching

To forget the color of the sky,
Or the smell of the ocean

To forget the sound of a bird,
Or the feel of the wind in your hair

To sleep forever,
Not even true love could wake you

It's hard to love someone,
When you're filled with so much emptiness

Riding in the car,
Gazing out the window.

Mellow music in your earbuds,
Weather is cool and crisp.

It’s nice to just lose yourself,
To get lost in your world.

Forget about reality,
And let your mind wander.

As you admire the world around,
You wonder where life will take you.

Curiosity:
What will you become?
Will you be who you dreamed you would?

As life continues,
How much longer do you have?