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Mar 2015 Haniiine

v V v

I always feel my best with pulsing veins
of Absolut or Johnnie Walker neat,
or devil’s dust to take away my pain,
a thin syringe injecting hell’s deceit.
Though sorrow loses strength with needle sting
and moods arise with belts of liquid heat,
I know the tingling twitch will always bring
electric blood when morning comes to greet.
But still I struggle with the current’s craze,
euphoric numb that always plugs and sways
the battle in-between the nights and days,
the sunset hour with all its shades of grays
where all the choices made are surely wrong-
I wake at dusk and start my morning strong.

Mar 2015 Haniiine

My Darling Diamond

Mar 2015 Haniiine

Brandon C Williams

My Darling Diamond

I never knew what beauty life could grace
Me with when all I had was troubled thoughts
But now as my eyes rest upon your face
My suffering and haunting dreams are lost

Instead my mind is filled with rays of light
Of overflowing streams, the clearest blue
And flowers grow from here to out of sight
My darling, don’t you know it’s all ‘cause you?

Because your smile caught me from the start
Because your eyes plant love into my soul
Because your voice breathes hope into my heart
Because your touch can melt away the cold

I never want to leave your faithful side
I’ll lie with you until the end of time

May 2014 Haniiine

15 texts I (almost) sent you

May 2014 Haniiine

kyla marie

15 texts I (almost) sent you

I can't believe how amazing you are. You're the only person who's made me feel this special in a long time [delete]

are you sure you just want to be 'friends', I think I'm in love with you [delete]

can I have a goodbye kiss? I love your kisses, they taste like summer [delete]

I wish you would just say "Hi" to me in the hallways [delete]

that girl you always walk with is beautiful, I can understand why you didn't want me [delete]

when you told me I was beautiful and **** and all you would ever want, was that all a lie too? [delete]

I got a mosquito bite today and it reminded me of when we slept outside and were attacked by them [delete]

it smells like the nights we spent together [delete]

one, two, three...I've lost count of how many drinks are for you [delete]

I wish you thought about me as much as I think of you [delete]

why are your words stuck in my head [delete]

I was naive and young, I'm sorry I actually thought you loved me [delete]

it's been months since the summer nights we spent together. please tell me you miss me. [delete]

my chest hurts. my heart aches. everything about you from the way your lips tasted to how I got chills down my spine from just one touch makes me want to explode [delete]

the blood running down my wrist contains the words you said but never meant [delete]

Feb 2014 Haniiine

over him mhm

Feb 2014 Haniiine

drunkonthoughts

over him mhm

there was this guy
who inspired me
once upon a time
he was the reason
i even wrote
my first ever
love poem
and at first
it was serious
and then it all
turned into dust
but i was stunned
infatuated for a long time
now he's no longer in my life
and i'm over the thought
of ever needing his embrace
or his face to kiss
met him 4 years ago
september 2009
fell in love
but turned him away
because love was a no-go

Dec 2013 Haniiine

Words

Dec 2013 Haniiine

Sebastian

Words

It seems as though
I always want to talk to you
But our conversation comes at a cost
Because every word spoken
Puts me one word closer
To the last words I'll ever say to you.

With hope I could forever speak
With reason and love aimed at your heart
Taking your ears and making them listen
To what I need you to hear
Before you cannot hear anymore.

Carefully I select the sounds I speak
As not to choose the wrong ones
Picking silently in my head
The memories I would like to leave behind
In every moment I spend with you.

I know the last words I will say to you.
They are in my head now
Dancing on my lips
Teasing your ears
But I will not say them.
Not now.
Instead,
I will say them when it is time
For them to be true.

I do hope, however, that when that time comes
You will have already said them
To me.

This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NoDerivatives 4.0 International License.
©Sebastian @http://hellopoetry.com/sebastian/

Dec 2013 Haniiine

you're the...

Dec 2013 Haniiine

Calvero

you're the...

Apple of my eye
Inspires bounce in my step
Smile jumping for joy

Sigh.

Dec 2013 Haniiine

undying love

Dec 2013 Haniiine

drunkonthoughts

undying love

tragically smitten
love, forbidden
feelings, kept
tight under wraps
because rejection
is something i can't face
you make me feel out of place
dazed, confused, in love with you
smitten, lost, broken in two
baby, you're deadly
baby, why don't you love me?
i gave you my heart so willingly
hoping you'd give me yours too
thought you did, at least thought
baby, you, i am blinded by
but my feelings for you
i'll never be able to deny
because i've loved you
for so many days and nights
that i can't help but write
and to express my undying love
just hoping you'll feel this too

Dec 2013 Haniiine

me, myself and my heart

Dec 2013 Haniiine

drunkonthoughts

me, myself and my heart

saying you broke me would be harsh
but you did make adjustments
to me, myself and my heart

might add more later, idk yet

Dec 2013 Haniiine

poet's notes

Dec 2013 Haniiine

drunkonthoughts

poet's notes

there's something truly nice with writing long, poetic notes
it makes the baggage easier to carry and manage
keeps you from further damage
to what is already broken beneath
and underneath the beautiful surface
as a poet, i've experienced a lot
as a young girl, i grew up fast
my childhood didn't last
had to be an adult
before the appropriate age
had to feel heartbreak
and sadness all over the place
i could feel an ache in my bones
a sense of sadness when alone
cried my eyes out at home
and hid the pain away
taking showers
to disguise my tears
hoping sadness would fade
wrote about love for hours
dreamt of you and my fears
destroyed myself to cope
pain changed my view on life
and the relationships i'd had
thoughts are like knives
stabbing me deeper
each and every time