I hate you more often than not
All the time, you ***** me over
Yet I am the bad guy
You make plans with me
Just to tell me no at the last minute
Anything 'bad' I do is terrible
But you do it and it is acceptable
Its *******
Your *******
*******

And still...
still...
I care about you
And I will put myself
Through this crap
To make you happy
Because I love you

When you kiss me yesterday
You said to make it last until we meet again
That was seven years ago
  I watched as we exchange that kiss on VHS

Today it made me squirm
Your kiss was an act.
Without the green lighting of  a sequel




“Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time.”

― Thomas A. Edison

Hello
My name is... Well it's not important
I have.. Problems
Anger management and addiction
I sometimes lose control of myself
I haven't had an inicident where I have
Hurt anyone physically in a while
Instead.. I use my words.. I can be quite the *******
I am slowly gaining control
It's a battle
Hopefully I get better

My other problem
Addiction
I am addicted to a girl
Some of you laugh yes
But this is a serious problem... Love
I am in love with a girl, who doesn't love anything
Not me, not herself, nothing
I make her giggle and my cheast feels like it will explode
I want to be part of her life
Her lover and friend
*** fiend and rock
I know I could be too
Oh lord give me strength
Give me words and wisdom
Knowledge
To win her heart through and through
And help her feel the world around her

I.. well I hate myself
I hate that I crave you
I hate that I cant move on
I hate that things aren't working
I hate everything
I hate being alone
I hate being

But I also love
I love you
I love the way you look
I love the way you talk
I love the memories we have
I love being near you
I love the way you make me feel