You never had time for me
But you went to see him.

I called for weeks.
Hoping to see you,
Even if it was for a minute

But you said you were busy.
Had things to do.
Things that could not wait.
Things that were more important,
Than anything.

Imagine my disbelief.
When I saw you under that tree.
Holding his hand; smiling
Laughing, bearing all your teeth.
Touching his face, affectionately.
Leaning in, going for a kiss.
My God, I couldn't believe it.

I thought we had something.
I thought you said it was just me.
I thought you said I was your everything.

I'm not even mad or angry
I'm only sad,
You never looked at me.
The way you looked at him.

Blank canvas
Paintbrush in hand.
I don't even know where to start.
How will one paint a beauty so fine?

How many colours will I mix,
Just to get your shade right.
How many times will I try,
Just to make sure I get that smile.

For yours, is a beauty that can't be painted
A beauty that can't be described.
A beauty that won't be seen again.
Till the end of time. . .

Let me trace the contours of your skin.
Follow them wherever they lead.
Let me see the hidden parts of your body.
And bring them out of hiding.

Let me find the spot.
The one that takes you there.
Let me kiss you all over your body.
Pausing, lingering;
At all the right places.

Let me part the way.
So I can knock on your wall;
Slowly,
Each tap speeding up;
Gently.

Let me take your breath away.
Set your heart on a race.
Let me make you come.
Over and over again.

You don't have to do anything.
Please;
Let me. . .

I love the way you say my name.
Whispering into my ears.
Calling out gently, softly.

I love the way you touch my skin.
Electric;
My breath vanishing.
Spine, tingling.

I love the way you kiss my lips.
Playful, teasing.
Biting, licking.

I love the way you take me there
To the shores of pleasure,
And to the gates of excitement. . .

You're the oil in my engine.
The flow to my rhythm.
The foundation of my building,
The one that keeps me from falling.

You're the helium in my balloon,
The fire to my Zeppelin.
Without you, my shape can't be sustained.
You're the medicine to my pain.
In my heart, your love is forever ingrained.

You're the light to my darkness,
Brightening up my day with your every/very presence.
You are the spark, the inspiration.
With you in my life, there are no limitations.

You're the rain to my seeds,
The one that makes them grow.
Always coming in calm drizzles.
Never a storm, always the perfect dose.

You are the air that I breathe.
The oxygen, the one that keeps my fire blazing.
You are my everything.
If I have you, I have no need of anything.

Don't ever imagine;
That you know what's going on in here.

This place is evil,
Haunted.
Bereft of happiness;
Twisted.

Dark corridors, hidden.
Behind a brimming exterior.
Soulless, and sad.
Yet, a smile.
In every appearance.

Don't assume. Don't guess.
Fight your own demons, instead.

The days we spent together,
Were much too few.
We had so many moments,
But they only feel like a handful.

Even though you're gone,
I still long for you.
I would give anything,
Just to spend more time with you.