You know that feeling where your minds fighting between what you own and what you living for. Where you know people understand but not really understand. Idk what's worst this heartache or disheartened people around me? Idk what's worst trying to achieve the impossible or knowing the fact we are too weak for it. Can I turn my car to some other direction?where I can search for peace?search for a life? Everything's so foggy I can't see the stars twinkling! Dreams so silly, wonder if they'll be lasting. Good times hauntin' bad times breakin' if only I could find me.
I don't want to be a clone, With no thoughts of my own, As if created from a mold, Always to be bought and sold, Never truly feeling whole, Having just an artificial soul, Like a mindless puppet on a shelf,
my ink was too bleak to write. my soul was too tired to fight. thoughts commixed with my sense. too shattered to take a stance. screaming voice couldn't be heard. a lone trip down the road. fight with the one that consumed. the reasons that amused. it was all me, me in a war. all that remained was A Beautiful Scar*.
Lucky are those whose destiny Is choosen for them For I feel their path Is clear cut and laid out They know what they are meant to be They've had enough time to accept it Unlike me for mine judgement Is clouded with antsy and fear With doubt and uncertainty The future I foresee is out of my control That makes me feel forlorn Will all the risks be worth at the end ? I frequent that path Maybe I need to hold on Till the end of the tunnel When the light will reveal my place And there will be no one But myself to blame Then I shall accept it raw
I've stayed awake Staring at the start sky For heaven's sake Let their be lightening Let their be thunder Let their be a full blown perfect storm So great, it'll leave me asunder Lord knows what's going on. Surely the storm and my beats Go by the same rhythm Someday when you return Curiosity will lead you forward And you'll steal a peak outside That day you'll know To what my eyes dilutes To what my heart beats The unknown world oh so hidden Like a starling pearl in its oyster You shall see the depths Of my thoughts