So much hurt & so much pain
Too much confusion, I'm going insane.
So many questions & instead of answers, just lies
Because you’re a Narcissist I’ve had to say my goodbyes.

I loved you so much, to within an inch of my life
I felt a stab in my back and it was you holding the knife.
I was patient and loving, I gave you my soul
Being together as a family, that was my goal.

Unfortunately you lied and took other women to bed
While still promising me the world, you messed with my head!
You toyed with my heart and played me for a fool
I’ve never had anyone treat me that cruel.

It’ll be five weeks tomorrow since I sent my final text
Every single day since then I’ve wondered who’ll be next.
I guess you are working on finding a new supply
Such a typical narcissist, you will lovebomb until you die.

I can’t carrying on holding onto any hope
Of you coming back to me so we can elope
I miss spending time with you & running my fingers over your skin
Whenever I was near you the feeling I got within.

Memories will live with me forever, I will never forget
Falling in love with you though is something I’ll always regret.
You were not a real person, it was all just an act
You are a pathological liar & a narcissist, that Lee, is a fact.

now when I think of love I want to puke,
the thought literally makes me sick to my stomach because I know now what it does to a person

how you lose yourself in someone else and then all of sudden you can't breathe anymore without them

I am promising myself to never be that stretched again,
to give myself a try for once, relying only on my intuition and will to power through life and relationships, never getting too blind to see things as they really are

I wanna know what it's like to be so good alone that the earth shatters when I take a step,
electricity radiates from my skin and my soul is so loud it shouts through my eyes

I smoke **** just like you.
Money gives me greed just like you.
******* makes me wonder just like you.
My parents kicked me out when i was 17 just like you.
I died inside when i turned 13 just like you.
I saw life for what it was a 7 just like you.
I want to die everyday just like you.
I think about killing myself just ljke you.
I don't like money just like you.
I love the moon just like you.
I love the idea of love just like you.
Most important im not alone, just like you.

take me back to the day I laid eyes on you.
so I can ask you your name and tell you I'm in love with you.
and maybe it sounds crazy but I'm going to marry you.
take me back to the first time we skipped out on class together.
so you can hold my hand longer and not leave me this time.
and ill tell you that I know it's still so soon, but I want to hold your hand for forever, through whatever, always.
take me back to the day you crawled into bed with me and held me after I had fallen asleep.
so I can wake up in the middle of the night and tell you everything I'm too afraid to tell you in the daylight.
and ill admit that I think of you every day and strangely want to see your feet bare.. and.. your body.
take me back to the night we tried to have *** but you couldn't stop thinking of her.
so I can tell you it's okay if you aren't ready, because neither am I.
and if you want to just lay here, just exist together, ill tell you that's okay too. more than okay.
take me back to the day I held your head in my lap and we talked about everything that scared us.
so I can tell you not being with you scares me the most, and my heart never settles.
and I won't admit it but ill tell you with my eyes that I want you to keep me.
take me back to the moment we touched other people and for only a second, no longer, forgot each others name.
so I can run away from his lips, and into your arms.
and maybe then your fingers won't find her cheek, and she won't realize your eyes are the darkest brown, but your touch can melt anyone like honey.
take me back to the day we promised forever.
so we can walk away.
and maybe then it'll save us the pain
of you and I.

I miss you, sweetie
Miss you so much
I miss you, sweetheart
Miss your loving touch.

I miss your smile tonight
I feel you, my dear;
Sigh, I have no right
to love you anymore!

Do you smile
like you did before?
Do you have memories
with me?
I miss you, darling
I miss you much more
I still think of you,
but do you miss me?

How about you tonight?
Can you hear me, sweet?
Where are you now?
I am looking for you!

You're still in my heart
like a queen
Have a great night,
Happy Halloween!