Emily

Emily Mar 2016

That stiff manor
And the lifeless grin was enough to
Freeze me.
Love is not supposed to be pulling teeth
To be noticed.
You taught me that mediocre exists.

The love before you
Taught me passion is not just
Drunk tears at 3 am and
Deceiving words.

I went from burning hot to freezing cold.
I don’t know what normal is and
I don’t know if I ever will.

I learned to set my own temperature.
I am in control of my own degree of love.
To find a happy medium would be ideal
But I have come to the conclusion I chase after extremes.
Whether it is extremely boring, or extremely exhilarating
It gives me life.

looking back and analyzing what I thought was wasted time was just in turn a valuable time to learn lessons that will define what i finally am realizing is a true love.

#love #confusion #denial

Mar 2016

BB Tyler

Short-Lived

Feelings of accomplishment are short-lived.
As are feelings of pain.

Pipe in hand, to lip,
smoke in the air,
short-lived.

The rain drop ripples forming on the surface,
short-lived.

New buds of Spring,
pink and green,
short-lived.

Even the trees
warming my home
piece by piece.

I'll walk once more
around the pond
before bed.

#life #death #nature #water #smoke #illusion #mirrors #cycles #transience

Mar 2016

Shaded Lamp

Valentine

Cheap flowers in the sink
A card with lies cast in the bin
Beers are frosting in the freezer
Shivering next to the ice cream
I scream
You scream
The neighbours bang the wall
A framed photo whizzes past my head
A family behind shattered glass
I turn to leave
Insults fly
I want you in my past
Exit hysteria
Outside another world
The curtains twitch across the street
What are they looking at?
Life?
What have I become
Sirens in the distance
Run you idiot run
Door crashes behind me
I spin to see that maniacal grin
Thrusting your fists toward my gut
Something sharp breaks the skin
The world slows on its axis
Just like the first moment I saw you
And as I slip from consciousness
Your enraged blood splattered face
has never looked more beautiful
So full of life
Farewell my valentine

Emily Feb 2016

Dark Paradise

The difference between you and me
Is that I want you every second of the day-
And when I finally had enough of being
Ignored and pushed to the side
You find it worthwhile
To insert yourself right back
In my ******* mad world

Only to leave me in this mess again.

#love #regret #boyfriend #hope #breakup #deception

Emily Feb 2016

I Found Peace

Thoughts used to fill me
No room to Eat
Energy escaped me as soon as the
Morning sun hit my swollen face.
But the sleepless nights turned into
Rested slumbers.
The thoughts that had once consumed me-
Still linger.
But my will to dismiss them
Strengthened.
I am not whole
But I Refuse to be Weak.
That's one thing I won't let
You Take Away
From Me.

#love #self #up #break #strength #on #acceptance #moving

Emily Dec 2015

That Day

I'm not always going to be there
One day, your ignorant, harsh remarks won't even be able to effect me.
When that day comes, I hope you understand
How living your life so obliviously
Has ultimately attributed to my demise.
And when that day comes
I hope you weep
Knowing that words can cut
As deep as a Knife.

#peace #depression #betrayal #forgiveness #acceptance #ignorant