How did Shakespeare get it so wrong?
Love was not in sonnets
But in smaller moments
Written for deaf ears.


-em vidar

I wanted to be sorry
For not picking up this time
Or the last
I'm not for the time before that
But maybe again for the time before that

You wanted me to be sorry
To hold your hand when you were scared
To pat you on the back for any accomplishment
To lie when he asks where you are
To fight for the wrongs you felt were done against you

I wanted you to be sorry
For the first time and the times after
For ignored opportunities
For the hours I gave you instead of me
For making me feel that I
Wasn't
Good
Enough

But now

I only want to hear goodbye


-em vidar

Shallow and content
With stolen glances through windows
In halls
Or simply not at all


-em vidar

I don’t know how long it has been
Since I last saw you,
However,
It feels like no time has passed, since you’ve reappeared

-em vidar

He was never in love with me
because I was never the real me with him
only the half that he wanted to see

-em vidar

Naïve
Yet
Perfection of
The unknown

-em vidar

Madness does not cease
I swear you noticed me in class today
When I try so hard
To blend in

-em vidar