Things will get better
That is what everyone says.
But has anything got better,
No.
Nothing has got better.
Everything has gotten worse.
Nothing has emotional has changed.
My mind is still to him and I still love him.
Yes, I know that he loves someone else now.
Yes,
I know that I am nothing to his memories now.
Everything will be okay.
No it won't
I haven't been okay for almost a year.
Everything will change, he will miss you.
He said he loved me but the smile that was on his face after the pain
Says something completely different.
He still loves you,
Now
you are trying to hurt me

I stare at my screen
Not sure what to say
I want to say that I still love you
But that would be too difficult and straight forward.
How can I make this conversation not so awkward.
Should I just say hey, how was your day?
Should I let you text me first?
My mind is running and my heart is chasing.
Not sure what to do.
We have a bad past, I know
But I want to make it different because......
The phone starts ringing
It is you
I answer and breath deeply.
You whispered,
I love you too......

When I read a heartfelt poem
When I eat the last piece
When I stub my toe on the side of the door
When I bite my cheek
When I get wound up and in a huff
When I witness a creature die
Whenever I think about you now
I cannot help but cry.

YOU
filled her with life.
Breathed air in her lungs.
Gave her a reason to live.
But
YOU
**** the air away,
so she was barely breathing.
**** the reason to be happy and to live,
turned it to hate and hell.
Then
YOU
**** the life from her soul.

Are the only true love you'll ever know,
don't break your heart hating yourself.
instead mend every crack by acknowledging
the fact that none is worth your
tears but
YoU
Don't burden your soul with tones of regret
what's gone's gone and pining about it doesn't change it
for every moment lived is etched in stone
where from it can never be erased.
Nourish your soul by let go of your past
and focusing on the future for only
tomorrow can be changed by
YoU
Don't discombobulate your mind by second guessing
the decisions you made, if it didn't work out try again
or move to something new. Thinking about what
could have been had you taken a different path
is a cancer that will infest on your mind
and from better destinations keep you blind.
Your losses can not be changed but the opportunities
on your plate can be consumed to success by
YoU
empty your heart, free your soul, clear your mind
close that account and forget the imbalances..
YoU
are the obstacle in your path
and by letting go the
KeY