I want to be happy
really
actually
genuinely
happy

And for
the first time
I am.

Smile
okay
a real one
sorry
about what?
this is the best I can do

what happened to the happy girl
I honestly don't know
why are you always so distant
I think
about what?
everything
what is wrong with you
I don't know...

Be happy
okay
actually happy
sorry
about what?
*this is the best I can do

Poetry
a simple world
of release

I write
until
my fingers are numb

To out way
the
pain

But others
they write
a happy song

And I enjoy
I try
to sing along

They bring my hopes
To a new
high

And I pretend
I try
to sing along.

Don't tell me
your sad too.

It hurts
Too much

I want you to be happy
I need you to be

If your sad too
I don't know how to go on

And I want you to continue
in life

While I stay
Here

In the
darkness.

I close my eyes
they almost feel like
they wont open
ever again

I breathe
in
out
deep breaths

Everything will be okay
I tell myself
but it doesn't
seem to stick

You can't do this
A voice
in the back if my head
calls to me

And I listen
I let the anxiety
take me
far

Far

Away.

'The sky
is the limit'
that's what they all say
but I believe
You
and I
can go far above
the sky
so the expression
should be
'there are
no limits'

I know
it sounds bad,
But every time
you smile
it kills me a little.