I always save room for goodbyes
I've been cast aside too many times
I don’t think I've ever let anyone experience me whole
No one's ever truly discovered what lies deep inside my mind and soul
You may have caught a glimpse of my sparkle and my love
But I never gave you more than I gave the One watching me above

I have fallen into the rhythm of goodbyes
Deep inside the realm of my mind
It's become a custom, almost a routine, always intertwined
Almost always like a waiting game, while you keep me near
Will you leave today, tomorrow or maybe next year?

I used to sew people into the fabric of my skin
Then find myself grieving by their absence because I wore my heart too thin
Now you'll find my heart buried beneath my chest
Protected from the heartache of the world while I'm on my quest
Reserved for the one brave enough to break through my wall
And be there both on my good days and those days when I fall

So when you find a way to my heart make sure you keep it secure
For only then will I know that your love is pure
I want you to run your fingers through the sweet soil in my soul
And realise that this is the place where beautiful things grow

But until then, know that these are my necessary lessons
They build me up and help me make progressions
Maybe this is a blessing in disguise
Maybe this is my chance to climb, a chance for me to rise

And I want you to understand that every time you leave
You're giving me the opportunity to catch the smell of a new breeze
So leave if you must
I always save room for goodbyes.
© Hannah.

~ I mould my feelings into words that I can read,
and even then I find that what I feel the most is in the spaces in between ~

I found your name in the dictionary,
It was under "dangerous" and "witty" and "myth"
You are defined as a legend,
No wonder I was subconsciously fascinated
And immediately fixated

Magnetized by your maddening, euphoric aura
A beautiful mystery clad in a gorgeous enigma
Grasping the air around you, destroying the surrounding stigma

There's something behind your flashing smile
That I was hoping to discover after a while
But you remain a beautiful mystery
While I strive to unearth your vague history

I can see some sadness hiding between your eyes
Will you let me in to comfort your silent cries?
There's an orchestra on your tongue, playing a melody I can't forget
Matching the tempo of the drums in my heart, without breaking a sweat

I can almost feel the warmth of your kisses against my cheek
If only you knew that it is your exquisite scent that I truly seek
You are a poet's pen, running out of ink
I'm still trying to figure out how one gaze from you can make my heart sink

The moon is nothing compared to the light in your eyes
Eyes so deep it seems as though I'm staring into the skies
The warmth they hold makes me feel lost at sea
They are so captivating that I lost all hope of ever being free

You're the lightning that reveals where the ocean stops and the sky begins
The sparkle in the snow and the snow angel's wings
You're the fierceness of the wind and the glitter in the rain
How can one person define all the things that I can't explain?

You are the raw words read aloud by the daring poet,
Standing beneath the midnight moon,
You're the breath of a whispered promise,
A place I would like to call home soon

But you're still a mystery,
A beautiful,
beautiful
mystery.
© Hannah.