what do you think i am
angry about the people youre hanging out with
and not me? I'm mad because
of all this **** im going through
under the surface
you know about it
and I have to face it every day.

You know, I think i know what I am
and i figured it out because you
never want to look at me the same.
You're out with your friends
talking about stupid meaningless
garbage

*******
Im dying
oh my god
Im crying

I know you're not like them
maybe im in denial
I don't want you to be with them
I want you with me
but I am not controlling
so Ill have to live with the fact that
you're just another fake member

in my boring, unsatisfying

lonely

life.

I figured out what I am.
I'm lonely
and you made this loser the happiest loser,
until you left and he realized what he's always been

lonely