I keep getting this urge
To tell strangers
How you used to bring a can of Chef Boyardee
To school for lunch everyday.
Or how I used to collect
Plastic Hello Kitty cupcake rings
And give them to you
Just to see you smile.
I would laugh as you ate it cold,
plastic fork suspended
straight from the can.
I would smile with you,
and hope you didn't realize
I ate all those cupcakes
by myself.
I want to share you with the world
Take your memory with me in my pockets
Spill it out with my tongue
I want to share you with the world,
Introduce you to people you will never meet
Tell people about you
Because they will never get the chance
To get to know you like I did
Like we all did.
But when you took your life,
You did the world a disservice
You took away the world's chance to find you
So you could find yourself
You took away your opportunities
To change
To get better
To grow
To love
And be loved
How we loved
You.
Your smile
Your eyes
Your soul
All so bright
Like stars in sky
Stars that you snuffed out
Stars that we can't gaze at anymore.
Your constellation is lost
Just a fairytale now
But a favorite amongst us all
For my friend who took her life. I wish you had called me before you pulled the trigger.