Cameron Banowsky

Cameron Banowsky Dec 2016

When the walls come down
the air is filled with sound.
Above the water not to drown

When the empire sizes your being
just lay down
become anything.

But wait.
To hell with that.
I want my power back

She sits alone at night.
She waits in line to silently die.
She sits alone at night
Praying that her death will bring a better life
Who knows?
It might.

#poetry #depression #idk #perspective #powerless

Cameron Banowsky Dec 2016

Oh HaHa

I just want to feel
depressed today
just let the feeling
of life
dissipate

I just want to feel numb today
don't want to cry
no
crying feels great

judge me
say you know my struggle
well *******
and your plastic bubble

oh haha
time well spent
I will see hell before I am sent
oh haha
time well spent
I will eat god before
i repent

preachers and priests
will burn in hell
because there they'll find
they have nothing left to sell
preachers and priest go burn in hell
at least there you have no one left to sell

well

oh haha
time well spent
feeding your fear to the ignorant
oh haha
time well spent
I'll see you in hell, when you are sent

Made an adjustment to fit better with music. I believe the modification makes the song more relevant to the way I feel now than the way I had felt at the time of its inception.

#poem #poetry #truth #depression #humor #political #religious #satire #beliefs

Cameron Banowsky Dec 2016

Devil

Hello devil my old friend
I think it's time we talked again
You an I
We've had our times
Had our lows
Had our highs

Even though
I can't see god
I have to believe in something
This world is too odd
Angels
Cry
They fill the clouds but
when the devil speaks
he speaks
so loud

Hello demons welcome back
I've been all alone
Been feeling sad
When we're together
I kind of feel good
Doing things only demons should

So hello Devil my old friend
This time I think we don't speak again
Even though we've had our times
We've had our lows we've had our highs

I don't say to believe in god
But there's something here
this world is too odd
And as I cry my tears fill clouds
Here's the devil's call
It rings so loud

#poetry #sad #confused #confessions #personal #introspective

Cameron Banowsky Dec 2016

Scream

In my thoughts I scream
don't look at me
no
don't look at me
no
don't look at me the outside -- serene

In my head I dread
Inside my head I dread
Please don't look at me
don't look at me
you're looking at the living dead.

Where do we go when no one knows
where we are?

In my thoughts I scream.
Don't look at me.

#poetry #truth #fear #anger #pain #anxiety #lost #insanity #shame #loneliness

Cameron Banowsky Dec 2016

Bury My Head

Bury My Head

Drive away from this place
nothing left here but empty space.
Bury my head hide my face
I bury my head hide my face

Looks like empty wins this race.
Empty takes the day.

The heart we shared won't beat the same.
There's nothing left here
except for this change.
Bury my head hide my shame.
I have to bury my head, hide my shame

Time wins this race.
Time takes the day.

Now this anger it
eats me away.
How do I stop what I can't change?
Now this anger
it eats me away.
How do I stop what I can't name.

I think I'll bury my head -- hide my face
I think I'll bury my head hide my disgrace.

#music #indie #solemn #solo #songwriting

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