oh the perverse desire
to tear off my skin
to slice my tender flesh
to carve and chop
oh to feel the cool air against my bones
to be fully exposed
to be grotesque and unlovely
oh to rip my chest open
to be
unrestrained by ****** borders and
finally free
oh sweet freedom!
see me as i am;
vile and dying, in constant pain
a broken slice of hell
amen.
i wrote this a long time ago but i was going through old journals and found it.