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2.2k · May 2017
Scars.
bluevelvet May 2017
I have scars.
I have scars you can see
but mostly,
I have scars past the surface of me.
I have scars from injuries,
I have scars from the words
I used to believe.
I have scars long and wide,
I have scars that scream out
'why?'
There's even a couple of scars
from the boy who'd pass by
in green cars.
I have scars from my first love,
and I will have scars from my last.
All my scars are from my past,
which is why you didn't even
have to look twice
to have known
that.
bluevelvet May 2017
But I'd much rather say,
At least your mistakes
Didn't turn me into a snake.
so crazy i used whether instead of rather
1.8k · May 2017
Only You.
bluevelvet May 2017
Snakes are vicious,
snakes are wild,
snakes are pretty
when you're a child.
Snakes like to bite
anything close by.
Snakes are crazy,
with a mindset,
they aren't lazy.
Snakes like to sliver,
snakes give you shivers.
Snakes are mean,
snakes are fine.
Snakes no longer hurt
this heart of mine.
Snakes are resentful,
I wouldn't say regretful.
Snakes are beautiful,
snakes are kind.
Snakes are delusional.
Like in the way
they have 'mistake'
written in their eyes,
halfway through eating
their own body of disguise.
you always knew how to bring the best out of me.
1.5k · May 2017
such
bluevelvet May 2017
I have made more mistakes
than I could possibly carry.
My words are pretty
because they're the truth,
and the truth is pain.
And there is pain in
everything with beauty.

I'll remember him
for the way he
was the first to break my faith.

I'll remember him
for the way he shaped my
belief of the little
I am worth to boys.

I'll remember him
for being the first to
break my heart.

I'll remember him
for the way he
broke my soul
in believing
there was still
good guys in the world.

I'll remember him
because he was
the only one that
ended on good terms.

I'll remember him
for being just
another *******
that walked all over me.

The truth is,
I had a part
in ruining everything
that ever starts.
The pain is,
fat
as
ses
are never enough,
right?
And the beauty is,
I'll take everyone of them
wherever I go.
Life lessons to
Trust no one.
1.4k · May 2017
Dark Blue
bluevelvet May 2017
A downtown
queen,
She finds solace in being
seen.
The loneliest of
birds,
she doesn't like it when
these feelings are
stird.
Would it have helped
if I had more
beauty?
Four foot something,
but I don't like myself
with dark hair.
Would it have helped
to have been a little more,
or a whole lot more,
trusting?
I'm sorry,
I know it's a continues
recycling of things that
didn't, doesn't, and
never will matter.
But memories, ideas
and impossible dreams
like to come back as waves
in the form of
dark blue scatter.
i'm incredibly naive.
1.0k · Nov 2017
Brighter
bluevelvet Nov 2017
I guess
It's because
Well maybe
It's partially
At fault
That they didn't
Fade to nothing
When I was with you

You deserve
Someone whose baggage
Meshes perfectly
With yours and
So do I
On a bu-bu-brighter note
It's not so much of a mystery anymore
1.0k · May 2017
you.
bluevelvet May 2017
life is fun
until you're on the run

from the demons that make guns
out of the words

that once made you feel as light as a feather

on the birds
that he prefers



over you.
828 · Nov 2017
Untitled
bluevelvet Nov 2017
If anything awkwardness
Is an attractive attribute
A lot of people find enduring

And I am awkward,
A social pariah
I stutter and hardly make eye contact

I run my hands through my hair,
Bite the skin from my lip
Trip over what I mean when I speak
And over thin air

I am awkward
I am me
791 · Jul 2017
Untitled
bluevelvet Jul 2017
She'd ask them,



                        See what they'd say


       If you're so happy and free



                Maybe you actually miss it



          But she is already perceived as



     Crazy, lunatic and unsafe



                     And that's what she is



Your perfect, extraordinary,



                     Little



    Creation



                You know everything to



     An exact T about her



          Now the Bride of Frankenstein,



                                   Tell her,



               Is she as beautiful as you



           Thought she might be?



               Is she deranged enough for you?



         And she's crazy,



              She's ballistic for this



        All the highs, the lows,



              The way you brag about the other



                  The way you recited every word



            The way you carry the sun



    The way you know just the way to her heart



                 She is crazy for you



      And there is absolutely nothing



                She could ever do



     To be the things you first admired



                 And now a creation of you



           That could just possibly never be of use
"I don't know what you're talking about. That's not my name. You're crazy."
714 · May 2017
wreck
bluevelvet May 2017
Times like this
is when I question if
you would have been there,
if you would have held me,
rocked me and dried my tears.
I search for tough
with a gentle soul,
but I get nothing to what I
need or want.
Does this make me selfish?
Being the person who tries
so hard and never gives up?
Years later and I can't help
but to wonder with tears I refuse
to spill,
would you have given up on me?
Would you have thought
that I was enough?
With my head a mess,
soul a thousand years old,
body a complete wreck.
Would you have already left?
712 · May 2017
Untitled
bluevelvet May 2017
It could be
the nights he'd touch you
in between hotel sheets,
The way he'd
hold your hand while
walking down vacant
town streets.
It could be
the way he'd smoke your
cigarette and get
ash in your eye,
The way it felt
to kiss when we
were so high.
It could be
the nervous glance
from across a packed room,
The way you'd
prefer your stance
in the hazy gloom.
It could be
the introduction
on a starry night,
but you already recognized
him from the corner
of your eye sight.
Was he just looking too?
Why does it matter?
You already have someone,
And it's not like you're one
to look all that flattering.
Catching up and
******* up.
Why is life but a mystery?
Spending life only
filled with newly
acknowledged history.
707 · Jun 2017
Dance With Wolves
bluevelvet Jun 2017
With their big teeth
No longer scared on feet
We sit on wooden stool
Toast to the newest fool

Hands searching for
what isn't found anymore
We no longer wait by the door

We dance with wolves
paws slam like metal hooves
We only find the remaining goods

We are a creation of self design
Our actions make perfect align
It's the direction of a sign
We are equally divine

Cut my throat
Watch me choke
But every world is a haunting ghost
It's the kind you'll forget but find the most

Speak with deaf tones
I no longer throw those stones
But every word is carved in my bones
And your presence forever roams

It's a joke for the masses
Led by the best actress
She died one thousand times on the same mattress

But she's a forest fire that never dies
Pierced by every single lie
She has scars from every time

You might think you're better
Ahead of her you're so clever
But look a little closer
You will never break her
640 · Jul 2017
Wait For You
bluevelvet Jul 2017
I will take these bones


   And make them something new


I will take this wild mind


                     And learn a new view


I will take this soul


           And cleans it to white gold


I will take this heart


           And teach it to be bold


I will take this hurt


         And learn from my mistakes


I will take these sunken eyes


      And find beauty in everything


Burn my skin and torch my hair,


My kind of love was never fair


I met a maker of the purist kind,


He taught me compassion in time


The lessons were forgotten,


The holy was unbegotten


In this forcing and changing line


So I take this life as mine,


It's never felt so bright in the shine


And things change,


People do too


I wish I could have stayed true


But this feeling is the deepest blue


In the way we were two of the few


He is far away enjoying life too much,


Wish I could've given him that rush


But there's only thin air to touch


And he doesn't read what I write


To see if what I feel is right


But every day and every night


I find a way to remember his light


Take these moments to live a life bright
Learn a new way to be true,


I will wait for you


No matter what you do,


I will always wait for you
565 · Nov 2017
Roses
bluevelvet Nov 2017
My father kept a rose in his bible
To symbolize him and my mother
I remmeber when he pulled it out
When I was little at churce,
I asked him what it was and
I forgot the whole story but I remember
It involved him and my mother
I can still smell the aftertones of rose
But it was brown and decade,
Withered from years of protection
Between pages as a bookmark
I realized I am the same for the ones I loved,
As little to none would admit it
I am that rose,
I am the withered bookmark you keep
I am the reminder of when you were human,
When you first started,
When you thought you knew everything,
When the simple things were enough.
I am the reminder of who you are.
I don't have a bible filled with bookmarks
I have a body colored with the reminder that
I am in fact human.
I will continue to add to it until I decide,
When I meet the one.
I will no longer need to print myself with bookmarks
But rather take photographs with my eyes
And feel with my hands and lips.
Taste and feel and experience why
Those other bookmarks are not here
But a reminder of how far I have come
530 · May 2017
Morphine
bluevelvet May 2017
On the edge.
Watering cheap printed flowers
on rough and itchy blankets.
He listens to the heart he no longer wants
dwindle and die,
like a car wreck right before your eyes.
Brings you down by your soul,
in all the ways you used to flow.
Brings you down by calling your grandmother through your cry,
through the years of forgotten sighs
and now you're begging to
be brought home.

Come here.
Heart flutter to this day,
remember cheeky smile,
sweaty hair and the way
he made your world sway.
By the front of your shirt,
he brings you down to his level.
Through the hardwood floor,
he brings you down past dignity left at the door.
On the ground you know,
he brings you down past the crust.
Doesn't stop there,
he takes you to the center of the earth.

Back and forth,
vacant eyes search for remaining worth.
Pavement of past and present,
places you'll never know.
Sadness fills the dreaded sky,
reminds you of a certain time.
Ask yourself why.
You'll dig.
You can dig for two, three,
maybe four.
You can dig until there is nothing more.
Every ghost has a reason,
yours often come like different seasons.
Your a ghost of regret,
a ghost of treading slow.
But you are a ghost,
a ghost that they will always know.
Slightly based off of Meet Me In The Hallway by Harry Styles.
528 · May 2017
Voodoo WIth Some Good Juju
bluevelvet May 2017
Under constant grey,
imagine laughter and running free.
Curly hair, vanilla twilight.
He was always there,
even the worst of nights.

Big bug eyed,
he could see through the
'it's okay' lies.

Soft hands, smooth face.
The crook of his neck,
tranquility and blissful peace.

He's a constant reminder,
learn to love life and its flow,
take everything in slow.

He's a remedy,
the kind for even the most broken of souls.

He's the wind, he's the rain.
He's the snow on all of my bones,
he's the place known as an old home.
526 · May 2017
Care
bluevelvet May 2017
I care about the way I look,
I care about the way you
perceive me.

I care about my favorite book,
I care about the way it let's
my dreams of 'us' be.

I care about the way you see,
I care about the way you make me believe.

I care about every word you spout,
I care about the way you fill me with doubt.

I care about the way you treat her,
I care about the way I'm a
misplaced,
forgettable blur.

I care about the way you don't care,
And I care about the way I'm
the only one who stares.
475 · May 2017
nose.
bluevelvet May 2017
you have a weird
button nose;

sometimes i want
to punch it,

sometimes i want
it to fight for dominance
with the weird nose
that i have

(i'd let you win)

the way your
bottom and top
teeth line up perfectly
sometimes makes your
bottom lip pertrude.

(which i would nibble
to get your attention)

I normally find that
just a little
offsetting on people.

But with you,
it leaves your face
looking like an
adorable pout.

(which i would memorize
while waiting for
the sun to rise)
473 · May 2017
sweet and sour, cluck cluck
bluevelvet May 2017
I sit and I ponder,
how can we make this last longer?
All that hate and revenge,
seeping from such a fragile body.
Was it worth it?
Do you regret it?
I can only now stay humble,
and never again mumble
to ones that pass by while I stumble.
I reach and I fumble,
the things that turned me.
into a rat.
443 · May 2017
Fingers crossed
bluevelvet May 2017
the green is round and
it beacons me to hit send.
just to say hi,
maybe 'how was your day?'
i want to ask you everything from;
what food you love?
do you like cats or dogs better?
what is your favorite color?
what is your favorite weather?
do you type your words out
or save time with u instead of you?
what scares you
and what dreams do you want to come true?
I know it doesn't matter,
but how do you like to be flattered?
but i dont even hit the bubble
because everything surrounding you is trouble.
i just made this up. isnt that just funny?
441 · May 2017
Dandelions.
bluevelvet May 2017
Tell me all of your
favorite games
And I'll spend my
days and nights finding
all the cheat codes
but only in exchange
of you touhing me
in places that curl my toes.
This forbidden fruit
could rule kingdom's that
no man with another man
ever could dream of.
My face isn't perfect,
my body is no mold
for billboards or magazines.
My heart is scarred,
my mind is a war field.
But these hands
could bring life while
touching your treasured places.
And this soul
is filled with tulips and dandelions that would take a lifetime to memorize.
441 · Aug 2019
Bleach
bluevelvet Aug 2019
Bleach you out.
Shave it all off.
I wish you were gone.
My hair,
A prised possession.
Your love,
Another dimension.
Don't forget me,
God.
430 · May 2017
twix
bluevelvet May 2017
Why think
one side is
different from the other?
Aren't they
one in the same?
reading into promotional ads.
424 · May 2017
Tittering The Line.
bluevelvet May 2017
You may find
that everything is partial sublime.
It's not that I'm not alright
or that I'm not fine.
You put on a good show.
I guess you learned
from the best about 5 years ago.
I don't not feel anything for you,
unlike the way you do.
I don't blame you for not forgiving me.
I don't blame you for wanting to get back at me.
So between these lines
you can clearly understand,
I won't forget the good times
because I wasn't the only one
that had to pay for past crimes.
I hate to see you got so bitter,
But I only have hope that you get better.
I hope a lot for you.
But I dunno,
That's just something people
with big hearts that learn forgiveness
tend to do.
This one isn't so jumbled up.
423 · May 2017
Heartless
bluevelvet May 2017
The inability to find
an inkling of humanity
in the depths of your snide,
it's resentful.

The inability to find
any common sense
in the waves of my mind,
it's distasteful.

The inability to find
any reason for rhyme
in this sickly tight bind,
it's remorseful.
416 · Jul 2017
Tattoo
bluevelvet Jul 2017
Before you go
Write something I'd only know
Without ever braving to show

Write about the humidity
Of that day,
Write about the thickness of tongues
Holding back words too scared to say

Write about how I wanted your arm
To be around me then,
How that light somehow dwindled and dimmed

Tell the story of blue and grey,
The way we were carefree that day
And your cheeks blushed in a different kind of way
About the memories for you won't stay
And how every picture loses meaning
And like a sunset, begins to fade

Write about the way you replace this thing,
Cover the discolored paint with the beauty your new life brings

Send it disclosured to me,
I'll rub my thumb along it to help my blindness see
All the things you wished I used to be

I'll brand it on my skin,
Lace it down with ribbons the color of your eyes
And show the world every time
Placed over my treasured heart,
A feeling of sublime
415 · May 2017
Chocking On Your Own
bluevelvet May 2017
She is a fire,
she doesn't need a man.

Full of desire,
she creates ships with sand.

Horns of survive,
she knows how to take stand.

Cold selfishness slams,
she's a child of Ram.

Undoubting strength,
she knows what is deceit,
she knows what to conceive.

Taken for granted,
she'll show you a hell slanted.
She is desire
with no fire
to experience or
witness your pacifier.

Give her your best,
she can ace all of the tests.
398 · Jul 2017
You Don't Listen Anymore
bluevelvet Jul 2017
She'd build flowers and paint pictures
To remind you that she's still there,
Deep inside where you both reside now
She'd punch through all your walls
Until her skin was gone and the meat
Was tethered to show the blinding white
Of her still trying bones
She'd take her eyes out so you could see
Just how far you've made her go to remember how to breathe
And how important and the center you've become
And when she'd sweat and curse,
Feel like she isn't worth your love,
You'd dab the sweat off her forehead
And hold her tight to soak up the pain
That would shake into your vertebrate
That's made out of armor and would end their life
Because you'd never want her to spend another sleepless night
388 · May 2017
Hair
bluevelvet May 2017
My hair is a mess
but it's not like I'm trying
to impress.
Tossed to the side,
wind thrown down the middle.
Hands ran throught it
out of frustration,
sometimes even the reason
for a cancellation.
It's crinkled and tangled,
it's ugly like my cankles.
Pulled and tugged
by the different men
that I either
had or hadn't loved.
Visions of myself
with long and flowy hair,
only to see if
it would have made
you care.
377 · Nov 2017
Blue Too
bluevelvet Nov 2017
I want this.
To be the caregiver,
To be protected

I want a love.
The kind you see in movies,
Read in books,
Daydream of

The kind that shows you off,
That wouldn't leave you left out,
Isn't afraid of the looks

That loves me for me,
And maybe the way my
Mouth can move up and down
And the way my imperfect body
Can contort against his,
Hairy on hairy
Grunt on grunt

I'd call him daddy when I feel bad,
Softly admit I love him when I feel vulnerable
Give him what he wants

Cook and clean,
Work and take care of the kids
Just for him

And all I want in return?
All I ever really need?
Loyalty and to be loved.
Loved and cared for.

Is that too much to ask for?
367 · May 2017
noun
bluevelvet May 2017
1: a sentimental yearning for a reality that isn't genuine

2: an irrecoverable condition for fantasy that evokes nostalgia or day dreams
Paris \'pa-res\
366 · May 2017
Icee Heart.
bluevelvet May 2017
It goes like this:

Coke,
Blue raspberry,
Red raspberry.

Repeat
until it's filled
to the top.

But when I
get to the bottom,
if found the courage
to ask,
would you warm
my cold hands
with the heat radiating
off of your heart?
i could've rhymed it better with your name in it, but where's the fun in that?
366 · Jul 2017
Untitled
bluevelvet Jul 2017
Little girl in white and blue,

Keep your eyes on your own peper

This has nothing to do with you

Not everyone has that picture perfect life and lover

Some need things to help feel right

Im not proud of what holds me tight,

Turns this ugly frown

Into an uglier, wobbling upside down

Beast of a smile

Take my shoes for a mile,

Recognize the undeniable pain

Of holding on to something in vain

Find the true worth of your name

In your transparent, crystal blue veins

Reality of dying alone on tile floor

'Cause when they closed it,

They bolted shut that door
363 · Nov 2017
You (part number whatever)
bluevelvet Nov 2017
A drawn out decapitation
Of a psychopaths mindset
Brought to life by everyone
They done wrong
It's a beautiful thing
Like he is and that other him
And obviously him and
You.
Whoever you are.
I know you found better,
That's great because everyone has
But if I could take back what I did
I would in a heartbeat.
359 · May 2017
face(s)
bluevelvet May 2017
After all the drugs we had tasted,
you by far
was the best a guy like me
could get him wasted.
Eyes dilated,
hands shaky,
heart racing.
I'd fling my arms all around
but in all these spaces,
you were never to be found.
So I search for new and
dilating was to find
both your faces.
353 · Jun 2017
Tangible
bluevelvet Jun 2017
Golden rainbows
flow from her skull bone
Hands filled with metal
she takes a final bow
she never wants to settle
any of her scores
A thoughtless head
wavering a never ending war
That dies with his lead

Eyes drowning in mist
her hands curled in her lap
the shape of pointless fist
The strangers laugh
in unrecognized town
Funny at their low level
you're finally down
A clever devil
He makes no sound

A tired voice begins
Words she already knows
never repeated again
This time will hold

It's not what you deserve
It's what you believe
A self loving love;
Don't be deceived.
bluevelvet May 2017
Fragments fade into
oblivion grey.
Time heals all wounds,
that's what they say.
Why does it trickle by
in the darkest shades of gloom?
From first love to the last,
everything is cherished from the past.
Unfortunately with time, everyone distorts what a memory was into what they want to remember.
342 · May 2017
This Isn't a Poem.
bluevelvet May 2017
The lucky ones that have fallen in love will understand.

Love isn't fate,
it's chance.
So when you have that chance
dont waste a minute taking a
second glance.
Love is laying
in a twin size bed,
pouring sweat.
His smells like vanilla,
mine smells like death.
Love is standing
in front of a mirror,
shaving together
and admiring
the way his round face
is shaped.
Love is laughing
at the silly faces
that only he can make.
Love is swinging
beside him and momentarily
forgetting the mistakes
we both made.
Love is how
he knew something
was wrong just by
a simple sigh.
Love is the
soft kiss he'd
give while between
my thighs.
Love is when
he'd f**k me
so hard i'd fall
off the bed.
Love is being
comfortable with him
and his curly head.
Love is sunshine
that would illuminate
our intertwined hands.
Love is listening
when he tells me to go slower.
(I'll remember this even
when i'm much older.)
Love is still
waking up and reaching over
only to find an empty space,
even all these years later.
Love is knowing
the difference between
a poem and
just
remembering.
i will always miss you
336 · Jun 2017
On The Front Porch
bluevelvet Jun 2017
Used to stay up
Lay awake and
Wonder if it will
All make sense

Wondered what
It exactly was
That I was missing

Now that I
Rearranged
The tiles I
Sit up and
Mindlessly wonder
If anything else
Will ever make sense
336 · May 2017
Magnify
bluevelvet May 2017
A reflection
to be punched,
shattered glass to cut.
How would
you have liked
my body?
Preferably
something akin
to playing
the game of
volley?
I could
start with my hips,
and then follow
with my stomach.
Or would you
just prefer it
over my wrist?
my many flaws.
331 · May 2017
Wonderful.
bluevelvet May 2017
It is about choice.
You have the
ability to choose
how life shapes you.
I am not the same anymore.
I change,
I rebuild,
reflect.
There is coincidence.
Going somewhere instead
of another place and
somehow meeting
someone that
changes your life forever.
There is decisions.
You decide to
find him,
you decide to finally see him.
You decide you both
deserve something up close.
But there is no fate.
There is no magical hand
somewhere in the sky,
moving us around and playing
a nice game of chess.
I hope you learn that one day.
I hope you are the one
to control your heart.
I hope you understand
everything you deserve.
Life doesn't wait,
it's not fate.
It's your choices,
your actions,
your decisions.
It's your heart and
it's everything that will
always matter.
You deserve to know your life is wonderful the way it is.
You deserve everything that I will never have the chance to give you.
331 · Nov 2017
It's Done, Mother Nature
bluevelvet Nov 2017
A swirl of clouds
And thundering rain,
Winds ungodly and
The stench of fear and death

It is done,
Unthought of all
The memories created there
Families and love stories

I dreamt a dream,
It was us two
At Disney and universal
You asked me as a ride was ending,

"Are you having fun?"
And I couldn't look at your face
But I timidly said,

"Mostly because you are here"
And I kissed you
Where the mouth ends and cheek begins
And you vanished as I pulled back

It was over like
A hurricane and a waterpark
A memory of us
In the tunnel of love
For children who hasn't
Seen each other in a year

But you knew it was me
And I felt this pull,
I knew I would disappoint
Like I did that day
Climed to the top of Black Hole,

I remembet it now

And it was our turn,
I cried because I couldn't see
I cried because of the height
And the unknown
So my mother took me down

We went to the wave pool
And it was of luck,
Just a wave of destiny

Because I hadn't seen you
In what seemed like forever,
I wanted you there because I was alone
But you were here in the water

You were here and
I felt like home

Now it's gone
The tunnel and a piece of
Black Hole remains

What if I never cried?
Would you have looked at me still?

It's childish to remember
But you were it
And now I'm in a wave pool
Alone

Where's the tunnel?
Where's the scary ride?
The embarrassment of being scared?

You knew me
Better than anyone else,
You still do
329 · May 2017
up (10 words)
bluevelvet May 2017
just
up                       to      
me                      watch      
built                   me    
you                              
And

                                        

                                             fall.
328 · May 2017
Lie.
bluevelvet May 2017
It's okay to lie sometimes.

Like if I seen you kissing her again
and just the look on my face
has someone asking if I'm fine,
"Of course I am!"

Like if I found out you got married,
she was with child and brought
to life your dreams that I dreamt of
helping come true
I'd smile and could only say,
"I'm so happy for you!"

And when the day comes
and it finally sinks in that you
so easily forgot the boy that
could have loved you forever
I'll just type out an easy,


'Who are you again?'
324 · May 2017
My friend named M.
bluevelvet May 2017
I have this friend,
They truly are the best.
Always there for them,
Keep what they tell me
Close to my chest.
I would never lie or deceit them.
Maybe I'm a little rude,
Blunt to be exact.
You could say I'm not modest,
Like, at all in fact.
But that's okay!
At least you can say I'm honest.
If they like someone that they could
do so much better or
if they like someone that they could never ever
have,
What would a friend do?
Tell them the truth!
That's why I'm so glad to have
A friend named M!
320 · Jun 2017
A Perfect Place
bluevelvet Jun 2017
I want to go to the water
Breathe the air in
Feel my feet in the lakes sand

But I will still be in this car
Your ghost,
The static of radio silence
Endless summer behind cracked windows,
Decay of winter if I should step out
Like you did so long ago

I wish you were still here
But I could never
Take the broken glass from
Your side window and chisel
Myself into the things you knew

I still feel you there
Even though I could never
Take the peroxide you used
To erase your fingerprints
And cleanse myself inside out

Still, you will never be anywhere
Because I tried replacing
The things I had forgotten while still in this car

Remember how you'd carry
The sun just to brighten my day,
Just a decade too late
It will never be enough
My body turns a sickly blue
As the winter air seeps through
And this time,
I will never forget you
320 · Jul 2017
Beginning
bluevelvet Jul 2017
Come away with her,

         Into a place where

This frozen time never fades,

       Both far and w i d e

Come away with her,

       You will only see

The still standing form of a tree

       That partook in composing reality

She's dressed in eternal white,

        Florescent blue street light

Concret and a barrel,

        Grass and gravel

Sun soaked murky water,

         Metal for the leather orange baller

A place where one rose stays true

        And the born again

Mind body and soul

         Is ever-present enough for you

Time is past and past,

           Is forever present

A hand caresses her sunken face,

              A heavenly place

But with just one gust of wind

             She opens her tired eyes,

The hand is but only mine
318 · Mar 2018
One of These Days
bluevelvet Mar 2018
You keep up the work, baby.
You're a real crowed pleaser.
Bite that toung, not that food.
And you can finally see it.
That face is thinner,
Those fingers overlap more.

You're on the right track, girl.
You a bad baby with a whirlwind storm.
Two years top,
Buy that couch.
Find that stranger and make it obvious.

A colorful accent,
Rosy cheeks,
Lopsided smile.

Let him feel those hipbones, sweet thang.
Do some ******* or ecstasy on that bone,
His choice because it is.

Bounce and you grind it, baby girl.
**** that neck and watch the sun rise.
Tell him. Demand him to listen.

"You see, I was never enough.
Never for the flash of cameras,
The holy trinity of delusion,
The fear of opening up.
I was a child, working for some kind of love."

And you smile because he's about to ******.

"Life is about compromising for the one you love."

You hop off, yiu throw him to the gravel.
Dump that lighter fluid, sweet child.
You use your last bit of strength to lift it up.
Toss that **** over the cliff.
Flick the match to follow.

And you look up.
The sun is up.
The wetness on your face dries.

Fold up the childish things,
Compromise with the ones you love.

One of these days,
You'll be good enough to be engaged too.
312 · May 2017
Did You know?
bluevelvet May 2017
The past doesn't follow you
wherever you go.
I'm not saying it'll ever leave you.
But one of these days,
while you're busy writing stories,
I'll be off making memories.
And you can drown in the
ones you grew to hate.
307 · Nov 2017
Untitled
bluevelvet Nov 2017
Shhh

Hush now

It's a secret

Stop now

He doesn't care
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