I want to go to the water
Breathe the air in
Feel my feet in the lakes sand

But I will still be in this car
Your ghost,
The static of radio silence
Endless summer behind cracked windows,
Decay of winter if I should step out
Like you did so long ago

I wish you were still here
But I could never
Take the broken glass from
Your side window and chisel
Myself into the things you knew

I still feel you there
Even though I could never
Take the peroxide you used
To erase your fingerprints
And cleanse myself inside out

Still, you will never be anywhere
Because I tried replacing
The things I had forgotten while still in this car

Remember how you'd carry
The sun just to brighten my day,
Just a decade too late
It will never be enough
My body turns a sickly blue
As the winter air seeps through
And this time,
I will never forget you