Every motion on new white is like a needing to deflower
the page, my seed is released in syllables verse.
Its never a one night stand I take my time.

Even though I leave in the end there was meaning to
this meeting of you and I. tattoos of our encounter
were left on you, but we took pride in inked verse.

*"Just because one is a flower sometimes we wilt,

I’m not going to rest
The last moment is not who I am
Neither will be the next one
I’m going to invent myself every day
There’s always more work to be done

I don’t look where I’ve been
I just carry it with me
There’s no need to throw anything away
Even my mistakes have meaning
That’s what I remember the most anyway

Don’t think I can’t love you more than her
I don’t have to make a resolution
There’s always a bird flying by
When they leave I wonder if lonely is being free
Is that why I am happy to see an empty blue sky?

The good thing is I know where it all began
And if I can’t take you there then
I’ll bring it to you except it will be new
And when you ask me about her
My heart will tell you what’s true

Let’s feel the pain and the joy
That will be our paradise
We will know how to live a real life
There are no longer any  storms that we fear
Turn your back on me now; I threw away my knife

i swear
that smile can fix everything

with just that one look
i can feel all the collapsed pieces of my life
forthcoming from the rubble
but then you leave
as you always do now
and that gracious grin follows

then i remember
you're not mine to keep
and unfortunately
it’s a merciless existence
without you

s.s

Tonight, my lover told me
Love

Is not enough
For us

To get married.

The thing is, you were a good boyfriend
But my dead feelings had to come to an end
I couldn't pretend to feel for you like before
So I ended us and I run out that door

I ran away because I honestly was afraid
Afraid of what you might have said if I stayed
Once before you told me you loved me
And for that I knew I had to leave

I loved you too, but differently
I couldn´t be faking it to make you live happily
I had to do it, think of myself and I am sorry
To have made you believe we were a love story

My heart wants to pull you in,
Feeling the bliss of knowing what your beautiful mind holds within.
My thoughts are putting together piece by piece what you are feeling or thinking inside.
Hoping that this will be something new and bright
What a beautiful beautiful mind.
My heart wants to pull you in,
But you see I have troubles within my mind.
The cruel monster that fills me up so very deep inside.
Making me think of everything that can go wrong if I just open up and show you what is inside.
My heart wants to pull you in,
The cruel monster anxiety pulls me deeper in.
Maybe he won't think your pretty it says.
Maybe he sees something better it says.
Maybe he will see all the flaws that you see.
Pause.
How can I let somebody in,
When the monster inside of me is crawling at the floor of my head to get out?
My heart wants to pull you in,
But my mind tells me to push you away.