i am sorry

        *is that all i could say?

yes, my fault

being insensitive is my fault.
bleeding is.

being careless is my fault.
checking the locks twice is.

being too happy is my fault.
crying is.

being ungrateful is my fault.

the slamming door is my fault.

my existence is my fault!

don't you see?

                        *nobody cares

the tears fell
onto her feathers
in iridescent moonlight
after she broke her own
wing attempting
to fly away from
home.

no answer, just a painful smile
and without a warning you left
seeking refuge in a quiet place
I was told

I felt your hesitation
in embracing
and wondered
why heaven took flight

so quietly
but there’s no peace left

© Marialenn 2014 06/10/2014

I'm not quite sure what to say,
because you were the one who walked away.
I gave you everything and you left me with nothing.
You left me as nothing.
I sit here in pieces on my floor,
wishing that I could have been something more.
But I couldn't be.
And that is something that can only be put on me.

You find yourself day dreaming
Every chance u get (nd not becoz the school work is so boring)

2.you just want to make him/her happy (might embarrass yourself while doing so)

3.you suddenly get a lot more liberal with your allowance (with chocolates and or flowers in question)

4.you start listening to the songs he likes and like them too or reading the book she reads trying to find parts of her in it

5.just the sound of his name gives  u butterflies and his voice gives u a smile (even on your most terrible day)

And I'm madly deeply irrevocably in love

I knew I loved you
When I was afraid to die

Has the wind ever moved you to tears?
Reminded you of all your fears?
Put you in a place that rests your soul.
Understanding without it were not whole.
The earth turns but we don’t notice,
The clouds resist, the weather shows this.
But here we are eager to learn.
Forgotten knowledge for which I yearn.
Theyll understand once its too late,
This is Mother Earth not Father Time!
He cant turn the clocks back, and god cant save us!
We got here through innovation,
Creativity fed acceleration.
Lets push it in a different direction,
Try to make the “environmental” connection.
The winds of change have started to blow.
And the water from my eyes has started to flow.

Alcohol, marijuana, and opiates just weren't enough,
I had to breathe deeply and slowly and snort some white dust.
Boy, that did it; rubbed clean my brain, got rid of that rust.
Cause it's get high or bust
and alcohol, marijuana, and opiates just weren't enough.

Now I'm wondering what's left;
a broken promise or three,
I'm sorry I didn't mean it,
but I meant it at the time.
I'm trying my best but I really need some rest.