Sick of all the battles
The ones that shouldn't be
Problems that shouldn't excist.
Melody
Life
Cutting
Burning
Emily
Anger
Suicide
**** what if I just said it was over?
What if I just said I wanted to take my life?
Would you guys still care?
If one dark night I started taking pills?
One night I cut too deep.
One night I cried until I couldn't breath?
Sick of it all.
I bleed to heal others.
I ******* die everyday to see you smile.
You never smile.
You make it seem like you don't care.
I just want it all to be over.
This time I'm not just venting in writing.
This time I'm being legit.
This might be the last poem.
I don't know.
I've pretended to be okay.
Well I'm not okay!
Just sick of it all

That's what I identify as.
No longer as gay or straight.
I identify as nothing.
That's what I am.
Nothing to everyone.
Being nothing must make me something?
Wrong.
Being nothing means when you want to **** yourself you can't tell anyone.
You don't want to look like an attention seeker.
When you want to cut you can let a word out.
Don't let them see.
I am a nobody.
Nobody cares anymore.
Well nobody except maybe melody

******* cutting up my skin.
In only places I can see.
Never ******* meant a thing.
No not to anyone.
I'm just tossed around.
Thrown sky high only to hit the ground.
One two three.
All blody lines on me.
Can I just take one to my neck?
Get it all over with.
Wash the blood from my hands
Dress me nice.
I made the ultimate sacrifice.
I took myself away.
So you can have a worry free life.
You never needed me.
Until that day.
Imma just ******* cut!!!
Bleeding.

The darkness is here
The darkness cares.
But it doesn't.
The darkness lies.
The darkness cries.
But the darkness will  never die.

Could I possibly be in...
No couldn't be...
But maybe...
No it couldn't be...
It is though.
Her touch.
Kisses so sweet.
Her personality... ****.
Baby I want you.
I need you.
She is the air I breath.
Like **** I'm falling for her...
Hard
Hard
Hard

My skin was white.
Night and pale.
White as a ghost.
Yes at times I felt like a ghost.
Wandering aimless.
I am a ghost.
I am dead.
Yet still breathing.
I wander dead.
I am dead.
My skin is white.