can I have
just a day of our time
maybe a walk in the park
or a coffee with heavy talk
just a moment of us
watching comedy on YouTube
laughing until we choke an icecube
just a ceremony for you or me
when I exchange vows with him
or when your son turned three
just one
just one more
of you,
brother

thinking back now
you are gone, now
no more birthdays to celebrate
no more parties to cheer on
no more jokes to laugh at
together with you
no more you
no more me too

I live, I breathe
I laugh everyday
but I cry each night
with the hope to return
to the almighty God
and I wake up each morning
with the realization that
I have no capability to see
my beloved mum, dad
and my kind brother
and I walk around
seeing the sun and the moon
switch places as always
with the fear at some point
the people whom I love
so very much stop inhaling
the air forever, again

I spent my day
laying roses on the ground
where my sweet brother
asleep forever beside God

a little girl like myself
would think a hurricane like you
a beautiful carousel to ride into

cheers to
the new open doors
the start overs
and the forgiveness
we will be facing
as we dance along
the beautiful storm
with music inside us

if we both met and fell in love
by God's will
then why should we be forced
to separate ourselves—our love
*by what human said?