ANTONIO Ainnoot: Poems

Pretty

ANTONIO Ainnoot Jun 2019

Pretty

I wanted badly to impress you.
To somehow enhance my creativity.
I was my best when you were with me.
You used to be my world,
but now you’re just pretty.

#poem #pretty

rewind.

ANTONIO Ainnoot Aug 2019

rewind.

I replayed my side of the story
a different way,
every day you were gone.
Until saying nothing
became all I had to say.
No more stars in my eyes.
You were the eclipse to my sun.
You made it hard to shine.

Not my best

#poem #lost #love

seams

ANTONIO Ainnoot Mar 3

seams

I think I lost my mind in 1999,
And it hasn’t found its way back.
Really took a lot for me to say that,
But my sentiments remain—
Took a whole pandemic just for me to go insane.

Watched my daddy hit my momma—ever since, I’ve been deranged.
Said I’d kick his *** if he ever did that **** again.
Over time, I just forgave him.

I’m way better than I was.
I learned to hug the ones I love.
If you know me,
You know all I want’s a million bucks.

They say, “Ask, and you shall receive,”
But I never believed in luck.

Ask, and you shall receive—
It’s just me and the Man above,
Working towards a dream.
I know where I’m ending up.

Sometimes, it’s never what it seems—
Fitting into a tailored tux.

Shook Ones Freestyle

ANTONIO Ainnoot Jun 2024

Shook Ones Freestyle

Look, Mom, I finally took form.
You never gave lectures.
You thought I was stubborn.
Your son is just headstrong.
But I must have hit my head on something.
If it wasn’t the headboard, it was the ceiling. That’s what I head for.
My teachers were dead wrong.
I never took to the streets, only risks.
Even if my dreams got stepped on, I made it out of the matrix.
I’m patient but surgical with it, no matter how many takes.
It took a village.
The grass isn’t greener on the other side. Some of it is synthetic.
Esoterics embedded through my epidermis, words of a sermon never spoke to my person.
My soul’s purpose is searching every day for diversions.
Recreational drugs were suppressing the urges because living in the slums leads to excursions.
I could write you a couple of verses about the things that occurred
And put into words everything that my neurons conversed.
Picture me growing up; I was never the nerd, but always looking through my window,
wondering how the universe worked.
Pick apart any art, I found a way to unlearn all the things that were leaving a burn.

Something

ANTONIO Ainnoot Mar 2019

Something

What kind of kiss do you give?
Am I someone you’ve missed?
Am I an escape from the life you live?
Are you in need of touch?
Do you need more than a hug?
What kind of kiss do you give?
Could it mean nothing?
I’ll see your smile as an invitation .
I won’t convince myself we have something
but I’ll always over think our conversations

#poem #kiss #questions

supposed to be you

ANTONIO Ainnoot Aug 2024

supposed to be you

It was supposed to be you-- I'll admit it.
I just knew we’d be through,
Once we were lit.
But we went out like a fuse.
All the music that we played while we were stuck in our rooms
had us thinking that somehow the future made room for two.
I wasn't the most astute, guess all I knew was from books.
But I reckon every second
that I didn’t need you
became a weapon I feel blessed with.
I'm so glad that we’re through.
No resentment, I'm corrected.
Told depression, "F*ck you."
Sometimes you have to play yourself in order to find your tune.
Once I met the consequences, I knew what I could pursue.
Our beginning was an end to everything I once knew.
Now I'm swimming by the edge;
it’s time I bid you adieu.
I'm no longer confused, I bit the forbidden fruit.
Had to look in the mirror so I could str.a.p on my boots.

The Blemish

ANTONIO Ainnoot Oct 2019

The Blemish

I thought all I wanted was to show my truth,
but I’ve been lying to myself that I’m over you.
I doused a flame with gas to boost an ego and it burned me.
How lovely, I have no shame, I keep bringing you up to myself.

I thought I needed this, but now I know that some people make other’s “happy” wherever they go;others; whenever they go.

-Antonio Espinal /Oscar Wilde

#ae96 #poem #love #lost #burned

the giggle

ANTONIO Ainnoot Mar 2019

the giggle

I always knew what I had

never thought about it after

How could I ever stay mad?

Have you ever heard her laugh?

#laugh #poem

the other one

ANTONIO Ainnoot Mar 2019

the other one

I was ready to let you go
at a moments notice.
I hope you know what you did
with that F'ing slow kiss.
While I drown in my sorrow
You float like a lotus flower.

#poem #lotus #flower #love #dying

the pain of time

ANTONIO Ainnoot Mar 2019

the pain of time

Nothing hurts more than
waking up to my own Alarms
you always had three
and I had you,
sleeping in my arms

#poem #clock #alarm

the storm

ANTONIO Ainnoot Mar 2019

the storm

I weathered the storm
now the rain hits the ground
The mountains have nothing on me
My heads in the clouds
..
and you’re the only one there.

#poem #weather

'tis the season

ANTONIO Ainnoot Dec 2023

'tis the season

Glass half empty, half filled, I cannot philosophize how much of a fool I've been.
To reminisce what we once were, then,
I continuously stare at pictures of you.
My most hopeful assumption is you're blossoming—that you're much happier.

All praise is due to the most omniscient.
Sometimes I wish you weren't so firm in your position.

May your garden be adorned with galore, all your memories recorded, and when you hear your calling, may you not ignore it.
May all your bouquets be orchids, and cups filled to the brim.
I hope that you're in love with all that you've conceived,
And when he sings how much he loves, may you believe in him.

#reflections #reminiscence #blossom #wellwishes

Too much

ANTONIO Ainnoot May 2019

Too much

I gave you more than you deserved,
you were overwhelmed.
don’t pretend to be hurt,
don’t lie to yourself,
but do what brings you comfort.
This was quite the show,
but there’s no encore for this concert.
You have some nerve,
your wounds are self inflicted.
Remind me who called first.
Just admit you became addicted, now you’re having withdrawals.
Let’s be realistic.
I Invested so much of my time and went over my budget.
Relationships always sink, I just hope you plummet.
It’s best you learn to swim,
it’s a deep abyss.
It’s not a dog-eat-dog world,
you’re just a b*tch.

#my #poems #are #just #amateur #raps

Wacko!

ANTONIO Ainnoot Aug 2019

Wacko!

No promises or guarantees
that I’m not crazy.
I know it’s only been a week,
so I haven’t told my shrink
how much you’ve grown on me

#crazy #poem

Where are they?

ANTONIO Ainnoot Jun 2019

Where are they?

We watch friends change and show new colors. Sometimes we need to let them leave
because if autumn taught me anything it’s that you can’t put back something that fell off.
That’s just the nature of things.

I need to stop with the seasons, it’s getting old.

#poem #friends #seasons #fall #autumn

you are

ANTONIO Ainnoot Jun 2019

you are

the reason love songs now resonate.
the only destination that rain won't discourage.
a dream while I am awake.
You feed my soul to keep my heart nourished.

Away

#i #think #love #you #poem

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