If I was always right
I wouldn’t be a better person
I’d worsen, for certain
Ignorance is a burden
If happiness is the weather
Then depression is the city
Because one comes and goes
Another stays if I never leave
What do you take pride in more?
Accomplishments or the journey?

I should’ve known how this would end
We played the part of distant friends
And I knew it’d hurt like a metal fist
A strong uppercut that almost missed
You should’ve seen my hand the other day
Shaking and trembling like a rusty train
When it comes and goes in a fiery blaze
Lungs burn, stomach turns, this must be fate
I’m calling around for a saving grace
And with two bruised knees, I’ll try to pray
What was that thing you said to my face?
Honey, you’ll find love, but not today
And I never wore a frown very well
But it’s been hard, if you couldn’t tell
It’s not even summer and I already fell
I’ll buy any hope that you try to sell

I should’ve known how this would end
We played the part of distant friends
I knew this would hurt like a metal fist
When I came near & barely felt your kiss
You should’ve seen my hand the other day
Shaking and trembling like a rusty train
When it comes and goes in a fiery blaze
Lungs burn, blood boils, a grueling state
I’m calling around for a saving grace
And with two bruised knees, I’ll try to pray
What was that thing you said to my face?
Honey you’ll find love but not today

the ******* version of me
always got the most things.

I feel like going away
These choices have hit a node
Like checking out of a hotel room
That I feel will soon explode
Walking away, I can feel the heat
Burning elbows, as I leave the scene
I know what I like, who I want to be
But want and what happens,
Aren’t always on the same street

I spent this morning, thinking
Looking for a belt, but feel asleep

These temporary feelings
Are worth more than a blink
Physically similar until
You take the second to think
Because you can numb yourself
You can say it all goes away
But a scar is more than a line
In the arm, it’s more than pain
Hold yourself accountable
What love do you deserve?
I only know as much as I do
Because I’ve been here first